I'm Lost. Does Anyone Even Care?

2005-10-25T19:17:00.000+08:00

man, i failed my e.maths by 6 measly marks. DARN !
but from F9 in SA1 and D7 now, i'm damn happy alrdy.
although d improvement isn't drastic or wht, i'm happy enough.
anw, for you info, i did VERYVERYVERY badly during SA1, all fail 'cept chi ?
AND, i failed eng by ONE, singular, mark during SA1.

ahh.
d improvement overall is seen, but it doesn't help.

anw, t those people out there who indulge in other people's misery, YES, i failed overall in d end.
with eng, plus another credit (as ms chan puts it) i am 15 marks away from making it into sec4. but so wht ? even if you DO get into sec4, i'm sure you didn't do tht well either. let's see how you'll suffer in sec4, with time whizzing pass you. let's hope you get your directions straight and do well for your pre-lims. in d meanwhile, i'll use tht one year t MUG fucking hard and score better thn you. let's see whether you'll get a good L1R5.

hell, for those who aren't retained and managed t scraped through with d exact criteria needed, good luck. you better all work doubly hard

hahhah, one more year for me. but i'm gna treasure tht one more year. MUST get through. heh, if i do well, my result slips are gna look better too. no more underlines.

anw, i hafta thank everyone.

MUMMY ! ahh, thank you. you're d best ! hahhah, i've observed your way of disciplining me has changed, for d better. i knw you are harsh with your words sometimes, but i knw you don't mean it at all. THANK YOU ! i'll work hard. the next time you cry, it'll be tears of joy, i PROMISE ! but all d same, sorry for disappointing you.

AH MA ! thank you too, i knw tht you won't see this, but there isn't anyway t express my gratitude in any other way. although i have difficulty in communicating with you, but over d years, your care brought me up t wht i am today. you merely asked me whether i did well, i said no, you could have not bothered, yet you took d effort t ask xiaogu t talk t me and push me on.

MY AUNTS ! hahhah, this is stupid, but, still, i wna thank you all.

ALL MY FRIENDS ! aye, some of you all may be in d same predicament as me, but use d one more year t study harder. thank you for d care

LOVE YA ALL ! <3

2005-10-11T18:25:00.000+08:00

a.maths p1 was horrible. HORRIBLE !
qns 1a skip, 1b anyhow do.

thn it's SKIP, SKIP and SKIP. oh man, my papers were filled with blanks. only attempt those qns tht were taught in d later half of yr. MDM EE's good alright ?

AHH, my brain is crammed with a.maths formulas.
arc length = r(tether)

anw, is it tether, teter, teteer, or wht ?

DAMN, get your fucking hands off me alright. DON't, i repeat, DON't ever think just 'cos you brought me up for 15 yrs, i ought to agree t your EVERY whimsical demand ? you think i care tht you're monitoring my blog ? it's a space for expression alright ? this is MY space, don't control wht i type.

YOU MADE ME CRY BEFORE GOING T SCH TDAY and I WAS HELL LATE FOR PUNCH-CARD, TWO DAYS IN A ROW ! ALL BECAUSE YOU CHOSE T CORNER ME AND INTERROGATE ME RIGHT BEFORE I'M GOING T SCH, WHY ?
'cos my shirt is not properly TUCKED IN ? wth shd you care anw, SINCE when did you start caring, i thought all you cared about was d fucking results ?
EHH, why d sudden change ?
got something through your head ? are you afraid tht at your funeral i wouldn't be there sending you off ? i knw by saying this, i'm very unfilial, but i couldn't care no longer. i knw i would regret even typing this in d first place but i'm just trying t get it off my chest.

you said, by listening attentively in class, doing homewrk on time, revision every single day and during wkends a revision of d whole week ? HOW wld i have d time to do it, sch ends at an average of 2 everyday, by d time i reach home, it would be 2.30 at least. don't i need t eat ? bathe ? wht about d chores you COMMANDED me t do even though i had tht little amount on my hands alrdy ? you said you ASKED me, let me ask you, wld you ASK someone like tht "you better mop d floor, blahblah " tht's obviously COMMANDING, not ASKING, you don't even understand d definition of d word.wld you ask your customer ' eh, you better buy d car hor ' OBVIOUSLY not ! i did your way, i TRIED it, but it didn't work for me. maybe it worked for those children of your friends, but we're different people. obviously i didn't adapt t tht method. you INSISTED tht i follow your method, and it'll guarantee my results. i tell you it didn't cos i tried and you still didn't believe me. when i say i studied, i did.

damn, i don't even knw why you give birth t me. maybe my birth wasn't even planned. maybe it's just an accident, when you impregnanted mummy during an act of pleasure. tell me, alright ?

and STOP punctuating every sentence with an expletive. you said i'm crude, chao ahlian, with all those words spouting out of my mouth. what about you ? you said i was influenced by my friends, wht about YOUR friends, were you in any case influenced by them too ? i didn't learn all those words from my friends okay ? in my memory, i knew of d word ever since i was a young kid. do young kids speak these words ? i DOUBT so, i was EXPOSED t your crude-speaking ways, every single word i knw, i PICKED it up from there.
you said you were angry. does being angry give you a hold over others ? does being angry give you a right t use tht word ? i think you're abusing d word, using it so often. okay, what if i;m angry, thn i scold my tcher d F word, let's see whether i'll get expelled eh ?

you said i didn't respect you. IF i didn't respect you, i wouldn't have even called you my father, i wouldn't even acknowledge you.

damn, some people should just change their thinking. FUCK

2005-10-04T20:08:00.000+08:00

MAN, the exams are here.

oh, there's a new function in friendster, called 'WHO VIEWED ME'.
what for create tht function if everyone is choosing t view profiles anonymously after all.

wld you like someone t knw you are viewing his/her profile WHEN you don't want them to.
OR
if there's a particular cute guy/girl who keeps updating his profile with new photos of him/her (cute smile and everything) and you keep going to his profile each time you log into friendster but you just didn't have d guts t knw him/her

wouldn't it be all exposed then ?

HELL, they don't have brains. why add tht function and cause d start-up page t load so much slowly thn usual ? it's just sucking up bandwidth and all.

alrights, off t MUG ! tmr's MATHS P2 and PURE HIST !
god, wish me lots of luck, i NEED it ! LOL

2005-09-24T16:14:00.000+08:00

UH-OH !

heh, i knw, i broke my 'promise'
LOL, i just simply can't resist d temptation lah. d sight of my computer sitting there, d screen dead, it somehow made me switch on d powerpoint. OH well, it's just tht i don't have enough determination lah. HAHHAH. anw, i was online on thur too. 'cos i was doing ace-learning. LOL, i did a hell lot of work this morning. so hardworking. LOL, everyone give me a clap !

one week t EOY. not much time left. thank god for tht one WHOLE free-day. but wasted lah, they shd have TWO, another one after d EOYs. freeday is meant t be FUN day, y'knw. t go out and stuff, yet, i think most of us will be spending tht day slogging and mugging at home. AHH ! can't help it though. --- makes all of d decisons. HEH, she was ECSTATIC on thur, pratically prancing around with joy on tht podium. LUCKILY d person who designed d school made tht podium out of SOLID concrete, if not, HEH, i fear tht d podium will collapse under her weight. OOH, i'm so bad XD

anw, off t MUG !

2005-09-21T18:23:00.000+08:00

Dear that small amt of people who read my blog,

i've decided t stop touching d computer for three weeks. it's gonna just sit prettily in d living room and i will not attempt t even switch on d powerpoint switch. Oh, i'm excused IF i'm doing ace-learning though. HEHHEH, but, even so, i will not sign into MSN. What great willpower this will take. HOOFUMFUM, this is like trying t get me t lose weight. But, i can do it !

HAHHAH, when i'm back. i will bring along a new site with a CHANGED layout. HEH, finally. So, wait till i'm back !

6 more working sch days till EOY.

MUGGERS OUT THERE ! LET's UNITE ! LOL

till then.

lots of love,
ELENA <3

2005-09-10T13:31:00.000+08:00

BACK from kayaking.
was superduperuber FUN ! XD

my partner was CHANWEIXIANG.
he's so CUTE can ? LOL
plus veryveryvery helpful also. HEH, i don't even have strength to lift tht bloodyheavy kayak. It weights a TON ! thn he help me

d water there is so SALTY !
PUI !
although not as salty as that in sentosa. after you come out of d water in sentosa and your hair has dried, you can feel salt in powder form. EEUGRGH !

HAHHAH, yup. went off-topic.
anw, me and weixiang were like d leading grp for d first 4km expedition.
d way he paddles VIOLENTLY with so much strength that it makes d kayak rock as though it's gonna capsize was so funny lah.
i was trying so hard t stifle my laughter behind him. HAHHAH, and trying t recover from shock tht d kayak was rocking sidetside so hard tht water kept splashing in.
anw, he was trying t win yehan+marilyn. DOTS !

after we reached d 'beach'(they say it's a beach, i think it's a dumping area with sand ), we had one hour of free time. WEIQI tried t drown me in tht ridiculously salty water. But being d superduper nice and superduper benovelent me, i forgave her. HEH. thn me,qi,sha,lin,meh and sarah kayaked t d middle of d sea and laid there.

on d trip back, me and weixiang had NO energy at all alrdy. so we slowly paddle, thn mrsingh rescued us. HAHHAH, so nice lah he. after tht was clean-up time. i wash d PFDs (for people who don't knw, PFD is actually wht many of you think is a lifejacket). thn went t bathe. OOHH ! there was a flood in d bathroom. HEHH, i think d drainage system too lousy lah. thn went back t sch

ANYONE KNWS WHERE T BUY SEN-SOH (tht grassjelly drink) ? IT'S RLY YUMMY ! TELL ME ON MY TAGBOARD !

2005-09-08T11:16:00.000+08:00

HEY PEOPLE ! XD

THERE'S KAYAKING TMR ! ROFL
HOHOHO

2005-09-02T22:41:00.000+08:00

i feel so accomplished ! XD
so, so, so PROUD of myself
-beams with glee-

i cleaned d whole of d kitchen, tht includes scrubbing d floor and wiping it dry. thn wiping d stove and d counter. and my hse mop is spoilt ! SPOILT ! the ends are all frayed and stuff.
after scrubbing d floor, i HAVE t use a miniscule piece of rag tht i can find and soak up all d excess water and squeeze it dry, thn wipe agn.

squat=wipe floor=standup=squeezedry=squat (x20)

amazing workout i got. HOHOHO, i'm bound t develop abdomen abs at this rate XD
no more flabby arms !

ya.
shirleen's say it's impossible i'm doing housework. hahah, you all just can't imagine me in a tanktop+FBTs, a hairband on my head and scrubbing at d floor like it's my enemy right ? HAHHAH, no choice, i rly did it ! (:

JENNA ! dinosaur must let pear ! HOHOHO, this is PERFECT english okay? HAHHAH, you don't dote on me also and my dp's NICER !

2005-09-01T14:16:00.000+08:00

i want t watch 'THE MAID'

someone sponsor me ? hahhah, terribly broke.

anw, i get rly annoyed when anyone disrupts me in my sleep. i will start hurling expletives and kick you half-aslp. HAHHAH, so conclusion, never EVER wake elena tan up. maybe tht explains why i'm late for sch so often. my maid has given up on waking me up at 6 in d morning. i will drag until at least 6.30.

OOPS, my mum says my black+glitter toenails are horrible and they make me look like a witch. WHERE GOT ! nice leh. my mum's blind, she only notices my toenails everytime d nailpolish is starting t chip off. no wonder she say not nice lah. WITCHES ARE CUTE ! (X

foofaafaa, i'm in love with tht taiwan shilin snacks alrdy. tday after piano went t eat with yk. he treat me, 'cos i got no more money. i love d fried chicken ! i hope tht d outlet at hougang mall open soon.

OHOHOH ! i learnt a richard clayderman song tday. for those who don't knw, he's a renowned pianist. OMG ! i have tht book for three yrs alrdy yet i just started learning d songs. so NICE !

2005-08-31T22:58:00.000+08:00

DAMN !

i'm running up a FEVER, i have THREEswollen ulcers at d side of my mouth, i'm losing my voice, my eyes are SWOLLEN , i'm itching like a monkey with fleas YET i still have t go for piano tomorrow !

i don't think i have d strength t even lay a finger on tht god-damned dreaded piano. i love playing it, but not tomorrow.

2005-08-31T22:20:00.000+08:00

WTF !
some teenage boy whizzed past me just now when i went dwn t buy MAMEE ! he was swerving dangerously from d bus-stop lah. centimetres away from me lah. i JUMPED !

knn, he still has d cheek t turn around and smile. SICK ASS ! i would have ran after him and gave him a slap if i could clock 8secs for 100m. that is, IF.i couldn't. i could only mutter 'fuckyou' and let it go.

i'm not in d mood for blogging. i was IGNORED tday. mrchoo left us alrdy. BOOHOO ! ):
he's such a sweet tcher. not only caring about us academically but personally as well. iLOVEhim LOADS ! but i was too lazy t buy him a present and tht stupidgay yk, cried. WTF ? GAYlah. AHHAHH, laughed until my tummypain at him. hahhah, people sentimental lah.

i parted with my darling STITCH tday, haiyah, i must keep my promises wht. not like SOMEONE ! how am i going t slp tnight

2005-08-28T15:20:00.000+08:00

got d following excerpt from here. hahhah, was blog-hopping and saw this. it kinda matches my feeling now. and it's rly SWEET !

If you see me walking the road with someone else ,
It's not because i like his company.
It's because you're not brave enough to walk beside me .
If you hear me talking about him all the time ,
It's not because he pleases me.
It's because you're too deaf to hear my heartbeat.
If you feel my falling for someone new ,
It's not because I love him.
But because you're not there to catch me fall.
If you feel lost,
I too am nowhere.
I too don't know where the road is going
Are we gonna cross each other's paths
Or just completely turn around ?
Will we just let go of what we had
Or go to the place where love is bound

Don't let me walk with him,
It's you i want to walk with.
Don't let me talk of him,
It's you i want to talk with.
Don't let me fall for him,
It's you i want to fall in love with.

p.s.
i've never stopped loving you. BELIEVE me ! let 5yrs prove it all. i hope you will use this 5yrs as a long period of time to change. NEVER take chances for granted. i hope 5yrs will be over in d blink of an eye. ILOVEYOU !

2005-08-27T21:39:00.000+08:00

'THE BONE COLLECTOR' is ON tonight at 10.30 ! MUST watch! DAMN nice if you don't like those chickfilms. this movie is all about suspense ! LOL. just go WATCH lah. and ANGELINAJOLIE has a nice bod. so at least you GUYS has smth for your eyes t glue on. DENZEL WASHINGTON's not tht bad for a african-american. XD -drool-

OH ya. must promote this web
www.i-believe-you.com
go read if you are feeling bored. 'cos it's don't knw how many chpters LONG ! hahhah, must give credit t keith&weiyuan for telling me ! it's NICE ! :DD

2005-08-27T21:25:00.000+08:00

HOOHAH !

woke up at 8plus tday ! parents quarreling >< color="#ffcccc" size="5">HAPPY EARLY BDAY LIN TAITAI ! :DD

i did something terribly STUPID tday. i chided weiqi ! hahhah, DAMN SORRY girl. so me and staffjas went t pei jui. bought chocs and a little card for MRS meiyouliangxin XD. gan dong mah ?

2005-08-26T21:20:00.000+08:00

today's ACTIVITY !

didn't do anything.
fell out 'cos i was having fever plus feeling nausea.
ma'am tan's VERY nice ! she say my lips very pale (bluish underlips=cynosis) thn she give me sweet. hahhah, thn she talked t me. wo kai dao le ! XD

slacked in STJOHN room.
saw ma'am ng's BENBEN and STEPHANIE. uber CUTENESS ! :DD
i LOVE toddlers.

2005-08-25T21:47:00.000+08:00

HURRHURR XD

XMS IMPLEMENTED A BLOODY USELESS SCHOOL RULE TODAY !
TUCKING IN SHIRT/BLOUSE till able t see d uppermost of your skirt/shorts/pants.

roflmao. DAMN lame lah. i think d uppermost is called waist-smthsmth. HAIYAH. t HECK with it !

alrights. so now, any blouse/shirt found hanging below d waist-smthsmth is regarded as TUCKEDOUT ! DAMN lah. means no more hanging tails for me alrdy. HAHHAH ! :DD

AND !

d boys pants/shorts can't hang on their BUTT ! no more HIP-HUGGERS ! they will all be revolved into GEEKY GOOKUUS with their pants up HIGHHIGH and sitting comfortably on their waist instead of the low-hip style threating t reveal their BOXER/BRIEFS. LOL ! i knw who's gna die. CHNG SHIJIE ! LOL. his pants are now hanging on the lowest of his HIP, any more lower, it's gna DROP ! what a sight man ! BUT, they wil all turn into NICHOLAS !

BUT ! why must don't allow shirts/blouses t hang out FOURFINGERS like last time ? even JINGPOH (my LOVER !) don't tuck her shirt like tht, and she's known t be a non RULE-BREAKER, NEAT attire, and a superduperly GUAIKIA !

i drew pictures, let me show you how xms pupils will look like, now and generations later.

wah ! so dorky. don't mind my stupid art lah. the sch might as well make us wear thick black EMO specs.

2005-08-24T22:03:00.000+08:00

had activity TODAY !

pei-ed WEIQI home after sch, played with RICH ! darn, so cute. AND, WEIQI's DAMN BHB ! AHHAHH !

unjumbling words was FUN ! we did tht during FIRST-AID

AHH !
i HATE trigo in A.MATHS !
it's DARN confusing lah.

2005-08-24T22:01:00.000+08:00

OHOHOH !
i've got my tanelc@hotmail.com acct BACK alrdy !

it's just a FOOLISH mistake of mine
WEIQI will knw d real reason though

but, all the same, add me in my new acct !

2005-08-23T21:14:00.000+08:00

DAMN !
i HATEHATEHATE mr ALANANGTONGHOCK ! all i FUCKING did was t reach my hand into my bag and reject a call. AND MY PHONE'S CONFISCATED ! whatDfuck logic is tht ? DAMN !
to think i used t hold him high up in awe and admiration for his dedication t our class. YES ! damn, he's dedicated. THT i'm sure. but he's BIASED ! let me show you an example.

SITUATION ONE
junkiat (NOTE: vball-er) was doing other work in class, yet MRANG merely said ' keep it, better don't let me see you with it.'
kunyang (NOT vball-er) was doing other work too, yet he confiscated kunyang's work ON-THE-SPOT ! UNFAIRNESS !

SITUATION TWO
previously, yongkwang's (NOTEagn: vball-er) phone was confiscated. FOR ONE WEEK ONLY ! mine ? TWO FUCKING WEEKS ! even mr singh (DM) will only confiscate for a week

CONCLUSION
he's biased towards VBALL-ERS lah

DAMN. i don't wish t say anything more. DAMN. i'm SEETHING with ANGER !

2005-08-22T22:45:00.000+08:00

HURR !
it's 11, i'm FUGGING sleepy, yet i don't bother t sleep.
WEIQI bought me HERSHEY's today ! :DD
TWO bars somemore ! xD

went t play with RICHH, darn CUTE lah
staffjas kept playing with him and jenna's scared. hahhah, okay lah, just tht teenyweeny bit.
RICHH fur keep dropping. aiya, eat too much MSG.
and RICHH eyes are DAMN EXPRESSIVE, like humans.

HOLYSHIT !
tdays there was E.GEOG test, and halfway through it, i went t do d zuowen and zhouji i owe MRang [smallsize tht one]
thn when going t put inside his pigeon hole, he walked ard d corner ! CUATIO lah, i SCREAMED !
actually he's DAMN nice lah, let me hand in d work SO late, and tht greenbook can be handed in tomorrow ! xD

and !

i GOT 31 for my CHINESETEST ! WITHOUT studying, 'cept tht little 5 min last minute lookthrough. PRO-ness LAH ! i'm so PROUD of myself, HAHHAH, highest in class only around 35 nia. told all of ya i'm better in LANGUAGES, or, i simply suck at everything, just tht i like languages?
EVERYONE CLAP FOR ME LAH ! i hardly get t boast of my results leh. ((:

HOHOHO !
STARHUB, M1 or SINGTEL ?
the bill actually looks d same and they sell bubbletea too !
HAHHAH, only WeiQi would understand lah !

2005-08-20T20:34:00.000+08:00

i feel an aching on d left side of my chest,

is that actually my heart breaking?

2005-08-20T20:10:00.000+08:00

hey !
i HATE tday lah

~~NO MORE!~~

was supposed t wake up at 7am, lazed on d bed till 7.25, thn went t bathe and stuff.
OH. took my time t walk SLOWLY t sch. 'cos i really can't see d way. i'm HALF-awake. i just couldn't get my legs moving. NATURALLY, i was late. EXPECTED lah, at d rate i was walking t sch.

thn went for DOOR-t-DOOR! sengkang! rivervale plaza tht area. we did THREE blocks. there was one auntie tht was NICE! she had no job, yet she donated $2 and her husband gave another $2 as well. it's because of people like them tht make d world less colder! :DD

after three blocks, we slacked at d void deck. had NO motivation t go on lah. HAHHAH!
i collected a measly $26 from BOTH DOOR-t-DOOR !

went t drink bubble tea. COOKIE flavour. rather nice but they put too much COCOA powder inside.

after giving d money, went t eat with them. i was JIANFEI-ing 'cos i had no money. HAHHAH. kope-ed BIGHEAD ikanbilis though.

went home MYSELF as d others had comp team trng. i was lazy t go lah. MOREOVER, i didn't bring HALF-U. anw, LOOWENBIN say i can only teach them t sing. GND lah !

i SCREAMED at d top of my lungs for 10 mins. blood's BOILINGHOT! i think i may need a FIRE-EXTINGUISHER like weiqi one of these days

HAH.
ok, shall end here

WEIQI's DAMN SAD! don't really know wht happened, but i will knw on monday.
HAISH! hope she'll cheerup. and STOP using tht stupid SMILEY! URGH! hahhah!

2005-08-19T22:05:00.000+08:00

RIPPERS !

i knw we do sometimes follow styles of different writing and all, but it's an ENTIRELY different matter if we just copy and paste someone's effort

for e.g.
- blogskins
- posts
- profile

NOW, there's a CERTAIN ripper i've been looking at now. i've been following her since her first blog. some princess-starting URL. she was my cousin's pri schmate or smth, and she copied the PROFILE and POSTS of my THT cousin and another cousin.
it's good enough tht you just post something with some clicks of a mouse and maybe ctrl + v, now wouldn't you just LET d original author at least know of it, or maybe link her or thank her? THAT's d very least you can do. INSTEAD of CLAIMING CREDIT for what is not YOURS t start with. NOW, i'm not going t PULL IN some of d other integrity-lowering things that she did. maybe later in my entry. i'm just going t focus on RIPPING ! she RIGHTFULLY thinks tht d post was HERS, when it wasn't.

OK !
now for d interesting part, she doesn't JUST rip. she tags her OWN tagboard using other NAMES pretending t be GUYS tht are interested in HER. oh GOD ! look at HERSELF ! 'cos they all TYPE IN THE SAME WAY and IP-adds are ALLTHESAME ! it's so OBVIOUS, can't she even do it the RIGHT way? she's seriously a NO-BRAINER ! PLUS, it isn't just ONE measly guy, she's GREEDY ! there are like four or five, i didn't even bother t count.

she too, placed a counter on the main page of her blog. there's nothing wrong with tht. BUT, she put the starting number as 9000+ ? imagine tht, she isn't even a professional blogger like XIAXUE etc. she is just one of the thousands teenage bloggers, posting about their daily lives, why 9000 ? and in one day ? kind of unbelievable right ?

also, she apologised t my cousins. yet, she didn't change. she continued with her RIPPING ways. she doesn't even appreciate chances. DOUBLE-SIDED creature ( YES! i used d word CREATURE, 'cos i think she's an insult t d human world). on one side, she apologise, on another side, she continued ripping. she thinks my cousin doesn't know of her blog. LITTLE DOES SHE KNW, she has found her blog long ago.

when we EXPOSED her on her tag-board, she SIMPLY deleted d whole tagboard and used another one. this time one with no time, as her previous tagboard listed the time, and AMAZINGLY, all d tags are at the SAME time ! one after another ! WOW ! i didn't know there would be so many people TAGGING on the SAME blog at the SAME time. and she acted like she didn't know anything. when there are SPAM, she deletes it off. when it gets overbearing, with multiple tags, she delete d tagboard, with MANYMANYMANY spams, she just deletes the whole blog altogether. CLEVER, ain't she. pity the brains were used on d wrong stuff.

HAHHAH, but we're CLEVER-er. you know wht's FRIENDSTER ? i found her friend's blog and tagged there. HOHOHO, then someone called '104'(herclass) tag and CLAIM her as a NICE, FRIENDLY girl. and she offended US 'cos she's too nice. WAH ! a good class. ALAS, she tagged as HERSELF thereafter, and she HAS the exact same IP add as '104'. fancy someone calling herself NICE, FRIENDLY and all d good stuff. she still has d cheek t say tht she is typing on d behalf of HER class. how THICK-SKINNED can someone get ? NICE ! oh, and there's evidence. we're COLLECTING them ! AHAH.

and she's from NYGH ! NYGH ! a reputable SAP sch for at least a dozen years. a beautiful wide expanse of d CAMPUS and you'll know how respectable and important a position d school holds in singapore. now, i'm not saying all girls in NYGH are like tht, i know a LOT tht aren't. she got into NYGH with 249. it's not LOW, yet it isn't high for a sch like NYGH. oh, if you're wondering how she got in, she got in with GUZHENG ! tht's not wrong lah. but she goes ard saying tht she has 252 ! what FOR ? just three marks MORE ? t let you get over d border of 250 and above. well, you might as well say you have 260. people are more LIKELY t believe you too. if you are able t lie t them with 252. NYGH ought t kick her out. she's a disgrace t d sch.

NOWNOW, it's late and i shadn't waste time blogging about her. i'm just getting some steam off. i'm simply DISGUSTED with her. UNREPENTANCY

NOWNOW, i'm getting tired. and i don't wish t let

2005-08-19T20:20:00.000+08:00

WAHLAU !

NO FUN LAH

don't say i not like girl LEH.
i shall type my EVERY POST in PINK, alrights?

i shall change my msn font colour t PINK okay?
HAPPY NOW?

2005-08-19T20:17:00.000+08:00

IRSYAD!
PLEASE tell me ?
HAHHAH, stop getting me t guess lah. guess WHOLE day also won't get d answer !

2005-08-19T19:59:00.000+08:00

HAHHAH !
i'm mad lah

i love doing PHYSICS in groups, thn she won't have t bother about us! HURRHURR. i concluded something, BOYS LOVE FORTUNE-TELLING! for our class boys lah.

WEIQI ! willy wonka! :DD

i'm SO honoured yesterday LAH!
weiqi sent me home!
i'm d first (actually everyone stays very far away!)
okay, i thought weiqi would lose her way. HAHHAH. in d end? she so clever, guess wht she did?
SHE FOUND HER WAY LAH!
damn. i very lame LAH.

okay.
reformatted my comp. means my photoshop stuff GONE! have t start installing from SCRATCH!
also tht PRINTER/SCANNER auto-uninstall.
i think my sister saw some photos in d picture gallery. OOPS!
but she didn't say anything. ACT BLUR lah. just hope she doesn't tell 'MUMMY!'

weiqi can PINCH people DAMN HARD lah !-rubs arm-
HAHHAH

tomorrow's DOOR-TO-DOOR ! again lah, BORING!

i'm going t change my blogskin soon. SOON! meaning have t wait till i get over my LAZINESS!
HURRHURR :DD

2005-08-15T16:44:00.000+08:00

oh well.
think i am not going t get back my hotmail acct
dont even knw for certain itself whether d so called msn hacker on my tagboard is d real hacker.
and i dont even knw wht's weixiang saying too.
explain it t me someday?

HAH!
anw, got a new acct
elena_feeldlove@hotmail.com
add me !
HAHHAH. i lost all d bloody emails.
including ZHENGTING ! boohoohoo (x
NCO camp !!!!

well, once bitten twice shy
try hacking my acct again lah

2005-08-09T14:35:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE !

so tired
even though i woke up like 12 tday
HAH !

ytd sch ended early
wanted t watch movie with NC (minus wenlin)
but all d slots were filled
THE MAID wasnt out yet
went t d toliet at PS and there was a picture stuck there
WAHLAU ! scary sia
PS had d longest gueue i ever saw!
the gueue was like d whole stretch of bars outside d theatre !

went HEEREN t take neos
thn saw d E7 gang there

HOHO !
thn went for piano
SIAO LIAO !
exam's this thur
DIE LAH

MIGHT be going t SENTOSA tomorrow !
with mich vicki and melissa
feel so extra lah. i dont even knw her
bt she seems like a nice girl
cant wait t TAN
my TAN from end of last yr faded off
so now i ook like sick little chicken ! ><

2005-08-07T22:00:00.000+08:00

FUCK!

wahlau ehh
some big MOFO hacked into my msn acct lah !
ASSHOLE !
FUCKER ! DAMN BLOODY PIECE OF SHIT !
WHAT THE FUCKING HELL !
ALL MY 150 CONTACTS ARE ALL GONE !
ALL MY FRIENDS LEH !
WHAT'S YOUR FUCKING BIG PROBLEM ?
LET ME FIND OUT WHO YOU FUCKING ARE AND I WILL NOT LET YOU OFF !
i already have an idea of whu the person is !
DAMN !
YOU BLOODY FUCKER

I DONT WANT T CREATE ANOTHER ACCT
I HAVE T START FROM SCRATCH !
VERY VERY D XINTONG LAH
WHOEVER HACKED MY ACCT !
RETURN LEH, PRETTY PLEASE?
I TREAT YOU EAT MACDONALDS LAH
WAHLAU ! JUST RETURN CAN ?
HELL

I HATE EVERY SINGLE FUCKING NITWIT HACKER IN D WORLD
ASSSS !

KAO LAH !
MY MSN DAMN IMPT LAH !

2005-07-30T10:41:00.000+08:00

HURRHURR

DAMN FINE LAH
except my voice

THANKS SO MUCH EVERYONE !

STAFF ZULI !
TAN WEIQI !
KUNYANG !
AISHAH !
JAS !
MARILYN !

and

MS NG ! thnks for helping !

and

HAIKEL ! ( d only one whu loves me ) LOL !
BERNIE ! ( KISS !)

THANKS FOR ALL SWEETARDS
I <3333>

thanks so much for being there. although it wasn't your fault or anything. I know, the way i am doing things now is very unfair, after everything that you've done. WELL. I will try my best t make it up, alrights? NO USE being sad with me. you still GOT YOUR OWN LIFE. One sentence i got t say though. ALL YOU DID REALLY TOUCHED ME ! YUP ! I shall keep to my promise and not cry anymore. ALL IN VAIN actually. YA LAH ! also will not skip meals anymore ok. NAGGY OLD ARSE ! Remember, HE'S d one whu killed me , not YOU ! No use feeling remorseful over it ! Thank you for being so tolerant even though you knew i still met up with him. Thank you for d trust you placed in me ! HAHHAH !

2005-07-30T10:11:00.000+08:00

HEAR MY VOICE ! (:

damn
SORE THROAT
throaty voice
and it all got worse. YESTERDAY !
CHEER until no voice lah
i cant even speak a full sentence without going OFF-KEY !
and my voice resembles a braking car when high
and a constipated sound when low
ARSE !

ROADRUN WAS FUN !
HURRHURRHURR
I ADORE TREATING CASUALTIES !
NO TLC ((:

im gna get a bdae kiss from BERNIE !
30 NOV (x
his first kiss leh.
give me !
HURRHURR
im giving him a kiss too !
12 DEC
HEH

ANYONE BE A KIND SOUL AND WRITE A TESTIMONIAL FOR ME ON FRIENDSTER PLS?

2005-07-28T21:33:00.000+08:00

have been sick these past few days

and my voice's GONE

not gone la.

THROATY !

DAMN !

im not overloading on d PANADOLS you ASS !

PROJECT SUPERSTAR !

im rooting for KELLY POON & SEAH WEICONG !

KELLY got d stuff !

and WEICONG ?

EVERYTHING !

it does help though tht he bears a striking resemblence t JOHN ( minus d hair!)

ahh*

WAHHAH

you didnt keep ure FUCKING promises !

2005-07-24T22:31:00.000+08:00

BOO !

ulcers ><

OUCHIEE !

i got free mags tday

ON MY DOORSTEP some more

LMAO ((:

2005-07-15T21:34:00.000+08:00

YOU NEVER FAIL T MAKE ME SMILE !

-grins-

THNX FOR D PRESENT!

:DD

2005-07-06T21:56:00.000+08:00

im disappointed
but wht can i do?
NOTHING

it doesnt help at all if chances are repeatedly being thrown at you and you dont appreciate it

it doesnt make a difference in a SORRY
too many times will numb d heart

it doesnt change anything when you beg after tynks start going wrong

it cant turn back time if you found out you missed smth you treasure

it doesnt if ure lies are tht MAJOR
it HURT someone deeply
without you knowing

it isnt anything if you say wht you dont actually mean at all
it's just sucking up

it wont make a diff anymore if you changed
after so much of repeated mistakes

it doesnt help if promises are made t be broken
cause tht's wht you did with urs

it doesnt help if you tell d truth in d end
after THT much prompting
when you didnt even wnt t tell in d first place
you might as well not tell

if ure words were all empty talk
you shd have saved ure saliva

THIS ALL PROVE THT YOU HAVE A PROBLEM !

THT's lyfe
i cld do nothing t help you
if you cont being like tht
it will end up being ure major problem

2005-06-21T18:12:00.000+08:00

hurrhurr (:

tday went out with vicki, mich. we were lyke so DARN late =x
WASTED trip t ECP though
there was no SUN at all n it's there's a slight drizzle

so we cabbed all d way dwn t BUGIS
WOOHOO in BOARD SHAWTS
SHEER MADNESS !! LOL

took NEOS too
FIVE tyms
FIVE !!
met vicki friend dere - melissa i tynk

here's come d funny part

we went t d toliet t put on eyeliner :DD
vicki actually only put d 'CLEANING IN PROGRESS' sign outside d door
bt i LOCKED it
ROFLMAO !!
there were a lot of pple walking past n stuff
we HOGGED d toliet xDD
then when we were walking out
there was ppl outside !
they said "i just tried t open bt it was locked"
so we quickly walked away

tried on a dress too
thn had t go
drank COFFEE BEAN first
YUMS
went t d MRT station with mich
she went first
her train arrived first
and i was waiting for yk
tht ass
HIDE bhind d wall
NO WONDER i cldnt find him

alrytes
im actually tagging on 30 june
ROFLMAO
how many days LATE !!

2005-06-18T21:18:00.000+08:00

BOO

hahhs
mich complain tt my blog ROT ><
no tym t blog kehhs.
in other words LAZEE =x

boring boring boring hols

nvr get t go out muchh

except the chalet of course

restraints duhh -.-

TAN WEIQI PULLED OUT D BLARDEE DAYTONA's STEERING WHELL !!!!

LOL *luff lyke siao

neways

my skills nt bad kehhs

how t compete wif them using MANUAL and me n qi using AUTO ?

wx still had t RAM my car @#(*$&^

as usual

i slept my way throughout d chalet (x

ky also . im nt d only PIG

didnt even noe NC'06 n staffmeizhu come =\

too boring

wb lah. sms him PS he tynk is PANGSEH

when actually it is PLAYSTATION !!

qi was d last man/woman hu didnt sleep a wink [whichever gender she/he prefer]

eat MAGGI

~yummylicious

coz i was too poor =xX

TMR DADDY DAY !!

WHEE
GOING T SEE MICH + VICKI + JACKIE LE

oh yya

thnx yk

for coming dwn t lend me ure hp charger

n missing d last bus + ure fav show last eps

i noe u read my blog

SNEAKY ASS (((((((:

TDAY IS JOHN BDAE !!!! <3333
I WILL LURFHE YOU FOREVER !!
ALTHOUGH I CAN BARELY SEE URE EYES
HAPPY BDAE
HOPE YOU CAN GET ANGELA CHANG
STAY SHUAI

I WANT SENTOSA SENTOSA SENTOSA !!!

2005-05-22T22:44:00.000+08:00

ellox

hahx
now in mich hse
celebrate johnathan cheena bdae
which i seriously had no idea of
:)))))))))))))))))

lalalax
went arnd spooking ourselves out at e clubhse
3rd floor all deserted
it's lyke when u come out of the lift
t ure right ish a door
t the left ish an empty space
dden there ish lyke a bar-counter or smth
dden got alot square tables
those type tt has green velvet top
and four chairs arnd it
darn darkk.
all of us ran into the lift
chiong-ed dwn
saw a maid or sum1 walking and every1 screamed
worse tynk vicki was taking a photo dden we scream n it shook
dden got blur blur scary thingi
freaked ourselves out

when we went dwn we look up
all the lights still on
then actually when we gg up tt tym
i saw e lights in the rm at the right[bhind the closed door] was on
dunno why oso.
no1 inside still on.
dden we were toking abt it dwnstairs
dden jackie looked out and sae the lights fading
mich said yya
we all scream and run
fiona had t drop her slipper on the way
and i ,being the gwd sister pei her collect

dden went swimming
tok abt stuffies most of the tym
sentosa bali shopping blahblahblah
all tt with an empty pocket ehhs ((x

dden got scolded for dripping water all over
oh yya
me mich vicki jackie had mass bathing
LOL
fun sia
bt with clothes on

dden drip more water
got ryl ryl ryl scolded
agnn
ddey sae i eldest still so playful
got scolded more
took towel t wipe wipe wipe
dden vicki n jacki mum dun let ddem stay
so ddey went hm

yyups
gg home too.
darn tired

okies
MICHELLE ONG HUI requested for her name in bold
so here goes

darn u lah babe.so chio for wadd.((:
kaex.tdae was FUN

2005-05-20T20:33:00.000+08:00

JENSEN ACKLES ish HOT HOT HOT
ahh *faints*
yummy guyy. xD
he's the coach in SMALLVILLE
he looks abit lyke cmm though >.<
and he gt tt divider or dunno wadd in his chin
darn kewt :)))))))))))))
neways. boy crzee
nt tt i dun lyke clark kent.he's too perfect
nt my type.
i dun go for bodyy beautiful

tiring dae
did i ever mention i ultimately detest file checks
so ma fan >.<
yyups
did e file till darn late

pissedd off byy u

ure repeatedd lies

aint gnna care anymore

in e past

i wld shut an eye n forgive u

bt i haf learnt

learnt t be hardhearted

i shd hv been liddat long ago

stop using me

lyfe's liddat . horrible

2005-05-16T19:24:00.000+08:00

arghhhh
f* it
i so damn confirm fail a.maths n physics le

yyups.
no fun.
tday ms chan show the muuvie 'the bone collector'
darn nice.
although i missed part of it.>.<
dden during physics
as usual.
mrs *** had t bitch n bitch n bitch
stp toking abt e results if u dun wan t divulge it okae?
i noe i do v badly lah
still no nid t ask me come t the front n gif me n others PERSONAL coaching
which ends up toking abt RESULTS agnn.
LMAO.
bgr.bgr.bgr
stp saying bgr will affect blahblahblah.
try getting the kls t co-operate wif u first.
yyups.
our kls standard ish expectedly lower dden e other combined sciences kls
bt too low le.
all thnx t a PART-TIME teacher lyke u
dedicate all ure tym t ure daughter lahx
u dun teach much n we dont learn muchh anw
im gnna b DEFIANT//
nt gnna bring e bloody file tmr.
see wadd u can do lahx.
neways.
lost all my wkst liao

wells.
a.maths not muchh better too.
1 pass in a kls out of 29??
OMG.
hahax.
i expected t fail.
bt i didnt expect e others t do so badly too.
yyups.
agnn.
tcher problem
wad's wrong wif the tchers t our kls?
all suckk.
andd.
hans ng dun even bother if we slp.

yyups.
the below ish for ms tan weiqi
riise does YOGA
n he love public stripping.
n wear GREY undies.
boxers are better kaex?
look at dis.

2005-05-03T19:57:00.000+08:00

bah`x

i hate you
i hate you
i hate you
i hate you
i hate you
i hate you
i HATE you
LIES.all LIES

stp denying tt ure wrong
ming ming jiu shi you zhuo cuo
yi zhi fou ren zuo she me
e truth ish ryte b4 our eyes
u shdd noe wadd im referring t

stp insisting ure ryte
cz u arent
stp denying e truth
cz everytynk proves it
will it kill u juz t admit ure wrong
mian zi na me zong yao ma?

shdd haf listened t wadd e others said
shdnt haf blieved u
how naive i was
so stupid blindly in love wif u

all e empty words u said
all e lies u told

i haf told u MANY tyms
REPEATEDLY
tt i HATE liars
yet wadd did u do
lie agnn and agnn

telling me dis n doing another totally diff tynk bhind my back
how nice ehhs
andd i was so stoopid t blieve
wells.
i was so deeply INFATUATED wif u
BLIND
tt was one word i could haf used t describe me

doing everytynk for u
tynking tt it wld last
hopelessly blieving tt u love me
blindly blieving everytynk u sae
turning a deaf ear on e gwd pieces of advice given to me

u kp saying n doing diff tynks
wad's e point

stpp saying u studyy for me
for our future
bullshit
there's no future
when u studyy
u dun studyy for me
u studyy for urself
for u sake
nt for mine

ytdd.
u askk me t blog for u
i did it
wadd did u askk me t blog
abt our 'everlasting' love
all these said t make me happy
all e empty words
u dare t say it whyy dont u prove it

oso
stp involving so many ppl in our relationship
OUR relationship consists of onlyy TWO ppl
whyy others
u created dis mess
u clear it up ureself
why do u nid others t do it for u?

u lyk to tell others ure problems ehhs
specifically GIRlS
ive been wif u for 3 mths
3 wasted months
all suffering
more sorrow dden laughters
ive seen through u
i noe wadd ure tynking
u may tynk i dunno u
bt i hate t say
i always observe u
ure every action
wadd u do nvr escapes my eyes
tell gers tt im bad
how muchh u love me
yet i dun love u tt muchh
how 'much' u did for me
n i didnt noe how t appreciate u
how confused u are
how muchh u suffered at my hands
the tears u cried bcz of me
the unrequited love u put for me
how i bullied u
making me sound lyk a big bully
controlling u
making u do wadd i wanted
nvr tynking of ure interests

u noe wadd u did
u noe i did nthnk wrong
stp saying untrue tynks bcz u wan
t gain symphathy frm GIRLS
making ddem feel lyk u are v kelian
dden making ddem fall in love wif u
u tynk i dunno ure motive
i know u too well
making u sound so perfect so gwd
yet i chose t nt love u
cz im a horrible ger
cry.cry all u want
all symphthy u trying to get
crocodile tears

wells.mebbe only weiqi noe how he ishh

nt tt im petty
nt lyk i wan t rake up e past
bt if u dont wan gers t lyk u
stp gving ddem false hopes
kping in contact wif ddem
telling ddem lotsa tynks. LIES n sweet-notynks
making ddem look t you as e perfect guy
bt let me tell u here
u are NOT
wells.mebbe u lyk ddem too
bt juz tt u are wif me
wells.
nt tt u are free
free frm me
u can choose ddem
step on how many boats at one tym oso can
i dun care
it's none of my prob anymore

i noe more dden u tynk i noe
stp tynking i dunno anytynk
stp trying to hide anytynk frm me
i noe everytynk

it's over

2005-04-20T20:54:00.000+08:00

secondd post of the dae=))
whadda ya expect?
simplyy too boredd
i aint slpyy worx.
miracle ferr me=xX

cheeredd up alot wors
anws
i feel asif im tokin t myself
no-one reads myy blogg
taught myself nt t tink so muchh le
tokk wif him over e fone ferr a shortt while
he doesn`t sound asif he care
well
if tt`s e wayy
suan le

im now gnna concentrate t studyy
mus pia all e wayy
minds off BGR stuffies =))

tmr gott a`maths test worss
die le
dunno score how many zer0`es ferr a`maths le
andd
to make matters worse
i didnt bring my txtbk home
how dumbb can i get
so tmr morningg gna do SUPER SUPER last minute revision
actuallyy
shdd be learn frm e start bahx
i haf been slping thruout hans#ng lessons
he cant teach AT ALL!
wtf!!
tok abtt him blood boil le
teach a`maths nidd t use ultraman theorum dde
im hopeless
tink i shall drop a`maths bahx
andd
he dunn bother chasing us ferr hw
e most
he onlyy impose fines andd gv our names t mr chee
wadd a nice tcher i hv
no wonderr more dden half e kls fail horriblyy

* u haf e guts to do it u haf e guts to admit it ] ]__
___*how do u exoect me to trust *yOo?

2005-04-20T17:26:00.000+08:00

haish.
tinks havent been going well.
life`s liddat bahx.
shall look on e bright side

it`s eatin me up insiide
u all tink i dunno tt he is upset?
u all tink i like t see him liddat?
hv u all ever tot. tt im fylin' worse dden him.
MUCH worse.
wells.
mebbe onlyy some close frens noe abt last yr bahx.
it isn`t doin me any gwdd seein him lydat
i wldd wish for him t get outta dis mess.
see his oldd self bac.
i wouldn`t hv wantedd tynks to endd up in dis state

many of u hear his side of dde storyy.
wadd abtt mine?
u noe tinks at dde surface
wadd abt detailed?
well.u all dunno bahs.
u all juz sae tt im stoopiid.to lose him.
when he loves me alot n suchh.
there`s lotsa factors involvedd.
it`s not wadd u tinkk
it ain`t tt simple
juz bcz i dunn show it all on myy face
bcz after all tt happenedd i dun come t skl teary-eyedd
u tinkk i dun care?
ure wrongg
it`s hurting.insiide.

dunn judge frm e surface.
u all see me n sayy 'haiyahh.so many tynkks happenedd yet she still can laugh n smile away.is she unfeeling or wadd?'
a fake smile plasteredd on my face
laughs of sadness
i dun blame anyone for dis
i chose dis
i prefer to suffer in silence
bottle up my feelings.
i HATE explaining tynks to others
i DETEST ppl askin me qns which i dun feel lyk answering

i didn`t choose this way out
it juz happenedd.

ain`t able to concentrate on my studies
i noe tt it is affecting him oso.
let`s hope it get resolved soon.
hahs.dun tok abt dis le

lotsa theft cases happeningg recentlyy
everyone seems to drag 3e7 into it.
mebbe it`s true.
they`re ryl selfishh.
dragging dde whole 2gether wib ddem.
for wadd dey did.
yes.im using e word THEY
n still dare to act nonchalant.
act asif ddey are not involvedd.
andd anyhow try t frame sum1 innocent.tryin to make ppl ur blacksheep ehhs?
wells.it dun work lyddat.
if you hafta guts to do it.u hafta guts to face everytink.
ish face everytynk?
onlyy cowards dun dare t face dde mess ddey createdd.
wells.im nt afraidd of wad e tchers label us as
'worst kls' 'kls of thieves' blah.
i wun mindd tt if THEY weren`t guilty n dde tchers are just maligning THEM
bt e fact is.THEY were involved
i wouldn`t dare confirm tt ddey were involved in dis incident.
bt ddey were at least once.
'one mistake n ur future is gone' tt ish wad my piano tcher tells me ever so often
the same theory applies.hu wld wan to employ a ex-convict.a drug addict
of cz.dere are different cases.of cz dere wld be ppl giving u chances
bt wadd if u take their trust for granted REPEATEDLY.do u tink ddey wld cont gving u a chance?
NO.once bitten twice shy.
juz hope THEY would hv learnt their lesson n tt ddey weren`t involved in ytdd incident.

tchers since e beginning of e yr hv thought of 3e7 as a kls.
a kls of losers.
students tt barelyy managedd to scrape past their sec2 streaming.
hu lack self-motivation.self-discipline.
dis impression stays wif dem.
im e best example.i kp slping in kls.dun hand in my wrk.
bt.all dis gotta change.
1 n a half wk left to mid-yr.dun hafta chance to study thoroughly.
bt im gonna chiong.
3e7.we can do it dde.
we gotta prove e tchers hu look dwn on us wrong.
n nt let dwn those tchers hu put in their effort to teach us.to try n get us on e right path.
ms chan.mr ang.mr choo
those hu tinks we hv a chance.those hu nt hv in their minds deemed us as failures.
we gonna stay united.as a CLASS.no matter how many black sheep we have.

2005-03-29T20:18:00.000+08:00

blehhs
gt a HUGE pimple on my nosebridge.
dots.>.<
hahs.bt it will go awae eventually.

hmm.
i got bac my wallet le.
yyups.=xX
some kind soul handed it to e police
although i went darn far 2 collect it.
nvms.worth it

2dae gt trng.
did first-aid, hm-nursing n a lil' footdrill
hmm.
when i was e casualty 4 first-aid.
kept noddin off.tiredd sia
kp slpin in kls.=totally nt respectin e tchers.
dden he kp wakin me up.idiot norhss.=))
todae he guai2 worx.go hm so earlyy.
hahax.cz l8er his parents wld yak n yak

hmm.
he lemme see some tinks tt belonged to him n his ex.
she v sweet worx.=))
yyups.
did feel a lil' jealous when i saw it.
bt as he said. it's all over.
budden his ex ryl nice n all
devoted 2 him.did alot of tinks for him
sacrificed alot for him.
did alot of nice tinks.
i doubt i can do e same.=i noe her too.nice ger lehs.
bt i shadn't wry too much
l8er grow wrinkles dden he dowan me le=xX
he lend me e tink he n his ex shared.
hmm.ryl thought ddey wld hv last.
n hv many more of tt 'tink'
bt..hahs..no1 can predict e future
dun even noe when he will leave me.

we weren't happy all e tym
bt at least it was most of e tym.
glad tt u gave in2 me recently
understood tt i cannt pei u
n put urself in my shoes.
u said sry when i was angry
gave in when we had quarrels
did everytink for my gwd
cared alot when i was sick.
simmered my anger wif ur lame jokes
bought little prezzies for me
did little thoughtful tinks 2 make my happy
lent me ur shoulder when i wanted to slp
make urself look lyk a fool to make me smile
trusted me wif ur tinks.
i juz hope it wld remain liddat.
*iLu `mwahhs

2005-03-26T20:30:00.000+08:00

hmms
im here le

tirin dae sia
zZz
slept at 1plus las nite
woke up at 5.30
almost cannt drag myself out of bedd
my eyes were -_o half open

n tt freakin 147 made me wait for 40 mins
i was runnin l8 lor.as always.
bt dis tym i wan2 b early dde.bloody hell.
i can cut my nails.darn LONG for tt matter
eat finish two pieces of bread.
tape my beret.n yet tt stoopid bus havent arrive
n when it FINALLY came
guess hu i saw on e bus
_h_o_ie
nt tt i hv anytink to do agnst him
juz tt his attitude piss me off.n seeing him so early in e morning.on e morning of my mock comp sumore.
darn it.
he was gg to play badminton or sumtink i guess
hell.bt i gt over it.=
took mrt to red hill.dden walk to henderson sec.
reminded me of NCO camp.hah.damn fun sia.n tt haunted hall.eeks.
dden chiong to change dden fall in.
walao.ZHENGTING bluff me sia
always ask him dden he sae he nt in comp team.
n yet? AA no.1!!!
wth.hahax.bt his commandin ryl buay pai.jiayouu wor
dden did footdrill first dden first-aid
sum1 so nice.kp askin e judge 4 footdrill 2 add marks.LOL
ahh.darn nice
liewx.e first-aid judge dunno wadd lor.
gv alot of funny tinks.
hmm.bt we did our best le.
NC'o5 qiang!!
dden finish everytink 3plus le
use adam fone 2 call him.dden he sae myt me.
so after eat dden go hougang central myt me.
dden he ps me.in e end i mus myt him near my hse dere.hahs.
wells.
since he sae gt ppl tell him tt i blog abt we all nt happy.
dunno hu sae dde.hahs.nvms.all in e past
lalalas.we now v happy lorx.=))

eeks.
tmr piano kls.
n i havent touched e piano for wks.
gna piss my tcher off agn ((x

2005-03-21T13:54:00.000+08:00

heyy
im bac frm e sjab 3d/2n camp at sentosa le
hahs.
shall go into details abt it l8er

skipped skl 2dae
sick since sat nite
ytd my temp was 38.6
budden i dun care still go dunman high see zone8 comp
dunman high e team damn pro sia.
didnt stay till e end 2 see e results
in e middle my stomach pain lyk hell
gastric. cz nvr eat 4 whole dae
i squatted dere n tried to control e pain
awhile go le dden kp coming bac. bth
hahs.
dden kp msg-ing him.
got my fone bac for one dae mah
he crap dde.kp askin me to breathe in n out-_-''
e milkshake at dhs was yummy sia.hahs
after tt go bedok central eat dinner
dden my dad fetch me 2 my mum shop 2 pick her up
on e wae bac my head pain until wan2 split
dden go hm still kena scolding frm parents.blehhs
by e tym i was gg 2 slp. i was resolved nt to go to skl e nxt dae
so now i at hm lor.hahs
in e morning go see doc.wait darn long sia.
e doc ask me wan2 do blood test anot.
i shocked sia.dden ask her blood test for wad
dden she sae my fever three daes le
scare me.i dden dun wan
she sae if tmr my fever dun go away dden go bac 4 blood test.eeks

camp was v fun worx
bt tiring lah
was soaked in water durin e amazing race n telematch
walked arnd sentosa wif water dripping dwn frm us=xX
stalin rocks.kinda united too.
dden first dae e route march ryl walk until i wan2 die lor.
dden got one jungle trail.v dark dde.
no light except e light coming frm our lightsticks n torches
me n sha held hands throughout e trail lor.hah
dden walk halfway suddenly hear sum1 scream.budden still continue walkin
dden every1 suddenly stp.
dden i turn towards my left.gt sumtink/sum1 sitting in e bushes
wahh.my heart stopped.
until he tok on his handfone dden i realise he ish human
scary sia.sumore he wear all black.dden sit in bushes.ALONE.crzee dde
didnt quite get to enjoy e campfire.was tinkin n wrying abt some tinks
bt heard e idols sing.kelvin ryl sounded damn nice.bt i lyk kevin song 'tong hua'.addicted to it le.=))

haiish.
tmr no more MC.
nidd to go bac skl.
tink i better go do my UNTOUCHED hols hw bahx =\

2005-03-15T19:30:00.000+08:00

heyys=))
had trng for the past two daes
start at 6.45a.m.
damn earlyy lor
hahs.
nvmss.all worth it
after april2nd i can slp all i wan
yippee=xX

ryl appreciate e effort put in by sgtmeizhu sgtzuli staffsock cplchris cplkelvin
and all hu had trained us
esp ma'am hawa
she graduated le and now wrking sumore
yet she took e tym to come dwn n train us
hmms. i deserved e scolding ytd lor. seriously

hmm
most impt tink in my lyfe now is
-zone comp
dden my studies
hahs.

didnt see him for two daes
argh. miss him so.
sun we all were at e same dae 4 e whole dae
yet we cant myt up
all bcoz of my parents
ytd he had to stay hm
hahs. his leg swollen
hmms.stoopid him
ytd at skl till v l8
dden he lookin for me mahx
dden cannt find me cz my fone kena confiscate
guess wadd he did?
he called kunyang 31 tyms n weiqi dunno how many tyms lor
stoopiid. ((x

todae see him at skl dden go hm wif him
hahs
tok abt our stuff
he ask me why i dun trust him
hmm.
i wan2 oso. bt its hard to
esp when i noe tt so many gers lyk him
hmm.dden he said sumtink sweet
he sae nt to wry.he's all mine. now n 4ever
tt ryl touched me alot
almost cried on his shoulders.
hees. i guess i hv to trust him bahx=))
he sae todae is one of his most romantic days ever
n tt he miss me 4 e past two days.
hahs.
he even wan2 come 2 sentosa 2 find me during my camp
so tt he wun miss me so much.

hmm.
g2g bahx
nid 2 help him do up his blog.
no pic shown
rot liaox.
no internet still learn ppl do blog=))

2005-03-12T16:12:00.000+08:00

arghx..juz typed a whole lot of stuff..and i closed e window.arghx.stoopiid me.=
hmm..
sucky week
lotsa tinks happened

first
i lost my wallet.
when i got dwn the bus i still had it
dden
*poof*
missing le.arghx.wth
inside nt onlie gt my tinks lor.still gt his tinks
tot he wld get angry wif me when i tell him.cz tt tink quite impt 2 him
hahs.guess wad was his response
he wanted 2 come dwn frm his hse 2 help me look 4 my wallet
idiot lorx.so far lor.

got home.
switch on the comp
sign into msn
dden my comp started sending files 2 everyone online
arghx.
i cua tio.
darn it.
dden my sis tell me sae she got the virus frm her fren
her fren bluff her sae ish pic
pls lor. pic got show dde mahx.stoopid lor her
i was so damn angry
hahs.
if it werent 4 him asking me to chill over e fone
i wld surely hv screamt at her
liewx.til now still hv prob toking on msn
forgive me bahx ((x

todae
gt trng at 0730
was LATE.
all bcoz of my dad.
had to wait darn loongg for him to get ready
was freakiing pissedd
alrytes
he went to myt e tchers super earliie
cz he niid to go to wrk
wells.
ms chan said sum tinks.blehhs
n my studies n stuff
hahs.n me slping in kls=xX
my dad met mrs irene tan too
cz i everydae come hm v late.
he sae if my studies drop aniimore he wld ask me quit sjab
dun wan lor
dden trng got P.T.
ytd promotion test my legs already leg jelly liaox
dden do so many tinks.
my legs can die dde lorx
dden had grp myting
paint flag
gt those kinda enamel paint all over my hands
tried using thinner to wash it off
at first i was rubbing it off n it was v coolin
i was tinkin damn shiok sia cold dde
dden e pain started coming
lemme tell u.
it ish damn farking pain lorx
immediately i put it under e tap to try n wash off
bt e pain kept increasing
didnt go away at all
my tears kept dropping
it was biting into my skin
ppl out dere.
no matter wad.dun ever use thinner on ur bare hands
u will regret it. e pain shou bu liao dde lor..
budden after putting under water 4 a long tym.okies liaox
hahs.
dden after tt went hougang pt.
look for camp tees.$16.im broke.
walked hm wif sha frm dere.
saw him kickin soccer at e field.

hahs
he hurt his leg ytd.
still go n kick soccer
ryl dun wan his lyfe sia
stoopiid him.
he juz tell me he went2 skl to look for me
cz he tot i was still at skl
in e end. i go hm le
LOL.dden he limp bac2 skl for notink
takkaires kaex.=xX

slackin at home now.
damn tired sia
tokin to him on e fone.he spastic lorx.=
oh yya
dun sms me aniimore
my fone kena confiscate.
blehhs

2005-02-26T10:51:00.000+08:00

screwedd everytink up..blehhs

sryy peeps..esp the I/C's and trng members..i noe it was mostly all my fault..sOrrY..dui bu qi

hmmx..ytd sjab was nt a nice wan for me..
i made alot of mistakes..
and landed everyone into trouble..

horriible me..i hate myself..

dun wanna tok abt it aniimorree..blehs

felt lyk cryiing..bt i held bac my tears..

hmm..he can sense hw im feeling..he offeredd me a shoulder..
i juz leant against it..
and suddenly..the tears turnt into tears of joy..thnx man..=xX

left my wallet in the klsroom..found out after sjab..
hmm..
i tink our kls key missing le bahx..
dunno where it ishh..
dden ask zainol for master key..hahs
in e end i wanted to go up and take dde..
dden he run up liaox..-_-''...idiot..
when he come dwn..he was panting n sweating lyk crzee lorx..
dden..feeling sryy..i treated him to bubble tea..=\

hmm..flag dae todae..the other 3e7 peeps are all doin donation tinks arnd hougang
keith pro sia..still can go home and plae comp..
wth..
hmm..i dun nid to go..yippee..
see..being in a uniformed grp pays off..hahs..

wells..juz wanna apologise andd apologise..
all my fault..
sryy everybody involvedd..

WeiQi [[ get well soon..NC nids euu..hmm..nxt tym dun skip ur meals n eat ur medicine on tym kaex..? i miss euu..takkaire lots]]

wEnbIn n kUnYaNg [[ dui bu qi worx..ryl v sryy..let u all dwn le..sryy..i cocked up e whole tink..srYy..]]

deleted the previous entryy..
dun wan to tink abt the sad tinks..
it's all over
n it's all in e past..
it's all resolved..
im fine now..
he too..
hehs..may e future be happy n sweet bahx..
no more squabbles..=xX

`affirmed tt dere iish a better tomorrow..all bcz of euu..

2005-01-24T17:25:00.000+08:00

heyyas..=))

boredd..nw at ms tan weiqi hse..using her comp tuu blogg..yawns..

i conclude -
rich [ weiqi jack russel ] ishh v kewt..=\..v small lehx..hmm..now 5.30 liaox..v late le..hahax..

after skl..helpedd taksheng n huachi to 'finish' the windmill..the finishedd windmill looks kindda lousyy..bt oh wells..at least cynthia put in the effort to help our kls to do it..otherwise tt rosalind chan surelyy gv us hell..

during assembly gt dunno wadd hse myting..i wasnt listening aniwaex..slpingg..
during physics i irritatedd mrs koh so muchh she confiscatedd weiqi taz plushie..hahax..in the endd she returnedd..bt she lecture us so much in the endd gt no test..hurray..=))

dunno hu pei dunno hu home horx..=xX..frm sengkang to ang mo kio..wahhahax..

[ [ wld u wait..? ] ]

2005-01-23T23:03:00.000+08:00

heyys..im here..=bOring wk..lessons lessons n more lessons..zZz
hadd a relief tcher for e.maths for the past two wks - mr chan -
cool sia..i like him..cz duriing his lessons i can slack
today

went for piano lesson in the morn..arnd 9 plus..n i woke up at 8..recordd for me lorx..=))..cz i damn slack dde..dden after tt i took NEL hm..so far sia..dden in the mrt gt one lil' boi..damn kewt..he keep staring out of the window n commenting to his mum..haax..dden i play wif him..guess wadd was him name..? JONAS..nice name..=]..im lame..
saturdae
went to do free labour at my mum shop..nth to sae..
fridae
slackk at hm..until rachel call me to meet she huachi n yongkwang..dden i go lorx..dden go hougang green dde macdonalds crapp..yk frens dere damn funny sia..gt one sae he must go home wash clothes..=))..huachi wear pink..so kawaii..=\..tt stoopidd yk sae my left toenail like kena bitten by hamster..-_-''..lmao..
thur
teach ncc first-aid..ddey were okae i guess..nt as bad as i expected..haax..oso nt i teach ddem..onlyy no.1 n no.3 of the comp teams..dden b4 tt went to see xms vball b bois agnst north vista..north vista dde no.6 shuai sia..bt weiqi tink no.12 more shuaii..eeks..her taste always liddat dde..=\..oops..l8er ppl kill me..at least my taste still normal..chinhong oso sae no.6..mus listen to him..he ish chiobu lehx..lol..after tt went fitness corner to play..or crap
wed
activity..recrea wk lorx..i was the station master..the ONLY one when my station obviously needed more ppl..and someone hadd to juz throw his weight arnd..haiyah..tok to kunyang wenbin n jinkai abt it at macdonalds l8er..ddey agreed wif me..haiish..at least it proves nt onlyy i tink he ish liddat..mus do everytink to his advantage..haiyah..dden hide-and-seek..the bai kah [injured leg] shijie still run arnd during catching..he wanna die lorx..=pPp..he limp n run..hw lame..dden cpl xiu quan go and hide in the locker outside the sports hall..hmm..wed was a stooppid dae for me..oh wells..forgive n forget..=]..
tt's abt it bahx..yya..forget to sae..chinhong ish has two heads..wahh..tao dua [big head]..head of dpt..for archery n recrea..wells..im the assistant head of recrea..hahax..and he gt a new name ---> CHIO BU !!!! wahahhax..

i wanna sae thnx to some ppl

guoqiang gor [ thnx for gving the advice..i will tink hard dde..=\..u mus take care lehx..wrk hardd bahx ]
shijie [ thnx for listening to me complain abt my parents..thnx worx..jiayou towards u and her ]

`__will u ryl wait..? i nidda tink
lOrvE yya

2005-01-13T20:28:00.000+08:00

knn..bloody hell..gastricc..

wells..msn messenger iish obviouslyy setting itself againstt me..refuse to wrk..wth ehhs..

i dunn feel lyk goiing to skl tmr..probrably juz get an MC bahx..buddenn tmr gt SJAB..i wanna go SJAB..haiyahh..see how fiirst..=\..tmr walkiing to skl wiith mel..myy dadd dun wan fetch us aniimore liaox..cz everyy morniing i wldd quarell wif myy sis over hu goes to skl fiirst..no choiice..sacrifice myy slp lorx..=xX..
todae..hadd recrea mytiing wif kelvin n angel..well..i forgot i gt mytiing..until i came dwn to the canteen..dden after tt went fitness corner and didd all those exercises..blehhs..i ryl needa traiin up on myy physical stamina liiaox..20 inclined i still need to hv break in btwn..=))..dden hv to cliimb up on those walls mahx..dden the whole NC cannt climb upp..so we use stool..wahhahax..so patheticc..well..scrapedd myself everywhere and my knees bllack bllack liaox..=\..dden gt one type of bar..dden we supposed to flip ourselves over it..dden eeliang hang on the bar..wahhax..laugh until cannt breathe sia..he look lyk shao zhu..[roasted pig]..u noe..those kindd u see in the tv show where ddey bbq over a fire..well..he looked exactly like one..lol..hahax..i tink bcz of the bars..the AC team injuredd demselves..hahx..no father's dayy..=(..bt physical trng was fun..yippee..i wan moree...

dden went 7-11..ddey eat lorx..i nvr eat anytink..hmmx..waitedd for ddem to finish their food..dden go home lorx..
arghh..fyling so blardy pain noww..gonna diee soon bahx..=\

2005-01-10T20:05:00.000+08:00

hehx..im in loorve wif jay's jie kou..argh..so nice..JAY JAY JAY

life went on as usual..bOriiNg..wkend was toopidd..went to do free labour oso get scoldiing..ass..wtf..nxtt tym i wun gv a damn..so muchh for beiing hao xin ehhs..knn..

yya..myy dadd promiise me to get me myy hp byy the endd of the mth..FINALLY..i was spposedd to gett it for myy bdae..yett..all bcz of myy mum..she ishh bloody biasedd..myy sis do everytinkk oso correct..i do everytinkk oso wrongg..hell la..i tolerate her enuff le horx..damnatiion..hahax..enuff of me ventiing myy anger here..at least myy dadd still gwd to me..i and my dadd gang up and bluff myy mum..we not gonna let her noe i getting a hp..hahx..cz she dun let mahx..so all myy bills go to his office..=))..yeahx..

todae woke up superr earlyy..kae la..exaggeratingg..arnd 5 mins earlier nia..dden walk to skl wif mel..cz she got sumtinkk to tell me or gif me..i juz foundd out sometinkk..my hse v near to the skl..walkk a few steps reach liaox..
lessons were boriingg..almost slept..luckyy gt tt benjamin to crapp me awake..he full of rubbiish..and weiqi..my si ren nu`er..bullyy me..toopidd..tmr gt historyy dde presentation i tink..cz yehan and amos do all the wrkk..oh yya..we hadd a new seatiing arrangement..boyy wif ger..lmao tcher..it ish supposedd to make us stp tokiing..bt i tink oso nt muchh diff bahx..jp sit wif jk..=PpP..she sure enjoyy it lah..aiyya..3e7 n 2e4 diff..2e4 the ppl keep insulting n making fun of her..3e7 nth muchh..

met myy sibling..dunno whether gwd or badd bahx..her name ish jing jia or jia jing..i oso nt sure..sum kindd of mentor im harx..=\..gt one ger frm punggol..meng ting..v chio..=//..dunno hear frm hu sae alot of guys lyk her..
after skl..helped wenlin clean her logistics tingie..i tink onlyy the other ppl help..i fell aslp on the chairs..i juz lie on four chairs dden slp le..me qiang horx..=))..dden went canteen to eat lunchie..didnt eatt muchh..cz myy gastric..irritatingg..

dden while waiting fer trng to start..the rest were doing hw..and i was slping..wahahax..i cleverr horx..slpp until dunno how longg..dden wenlin wake me up to see sum1..lmao..-_-''..dden did footdrill and first-aidd dden go home liaox..

yawns..now v slpyy..i wann go orh orh le..=\..

2005-01-10T20:02:00.000+08:00

2005-01-05T21:30:00.000+08:00

blahx..decided to post on a regular basis..nortt badd fer a slackker lykk me harx..=X

todae had PE..took weight n height..i shrank..=))..impossible lorx..162cm bcum 160cm..ahh..malnutrition..hahax..of course i grew fatter..=\..eat and eat ice-creamm..hehss..i got soft spot fer sweet stuffies..50 kg lorx..so heavy..i was heavier byy 3 kg lorx..

todae gort IC trng..haiyahx..dunch fyl lyk being IC..im worried i will crash everytink..hahax..
dden after tt got sec1 orientation stuff..arghx..all gort attitude..i was toking until mouth dryy liaox lor..and yett ddeyy juz sae orh..okae and walkk awayy..piss me off sia..hahax..i v hot-tempered horx..

after tt..was suffering frm severe stomachache..arghx..dden go 7-11 buy potato..i ate half dden cannt finish liaox..weiqi was nortt fyling well so we sent her home..takkaires kaex..

dden on 325..wenbin and jinkai were slping lyk logs..dden i slpyy..bt in the endd..i nvrr sleep..cz must wake ddem up..hahax..i v gwd dde..=P..dden walked home..arghx..dden told my dadd abt myy stomachache..dden i go eat panadol..eeks..went home..dden my maid gimme dinner..skipped dinner..nort hungry mahss..dden kena scolding by mum..kaox..i juz shut my ears off..=))..

noww im tiredd le..i nidda go slp le..otherwise tmr sure slp in kls..=\..byye..takkaires..

2005-01-03T20:47:00.000+08:00

heyyas..im finally blogging..=\..all bcz of my stoopid comp..keep hanging..oh wells..

HAPPY NEW YR!! hope all of yya hv a gwd yr ahead..

lotsa tinks happened during the hols..chalet..blahblah..my bdae was slipshod..nort ryl celebrated..well..hu cares..as long as i get my chilli crab..=))..eeks..im now craving fer alcohol..all thnx to my dad and kunny..my dad lemme drink beer n kunny introduce me to vodka..hahax..i found out my jiu2 liang4 nort badd lehx..i drank 3 bottles of vodka during the chalet..okae larhx..2 and half bahx..and i was still sound..hahax..meh drink half a bottle and she started speaking gibberish during the star awards and her face and neck was red and hot..well..the chalet was chaotic..mahjong..tv..and i kept sleeping..zZz..im a pigg mahss..went to watch sunrise..freezing lorx..and weiqi was spooked by sumtink floating over the water or sumtink..hehs..dden went escape and saw taupok..aiyya..i fyl so badd..taufik..well..the fake dde..nort badd larhx..i only caught a sunburn niax..dden gort bbq..sgt meizhu came wif kelvin worx..wahhaax..romantic..ddey all so fake fake liddat lorx..dden keep denying..wahh..dden kelvin hp ish lao gu dong..so hard..bt i managed to get wadd i wanted to find in his hp..=\..dden he went home..sgt meizhu was so sadd..aww..dden all of us squeeze on the beds lorx..dden i sit at the corner mahx..dden got window beside me..looking dwn into the living room..dden sgt meizhu was telling ghost stories wadeva..and i was freezing..probrably cz i was scared..dden we all went to slp..all of us squeeze onto the beds..hahax..jinkai and sgt meizhu was lying on kunyang tummy i tink..dden eeliang hog half the bed..dden i tink too squeezy le..so some of dem woke up..dden ddey all damned boliao..go and get all the hp in the chalet..dden ddey put half in the rm..dden ddey call frm dwnstairs..wah piangx..i keep hearing the gong xi fa cai tink lorx..and pink panther..chao si ren..me and roger was cursing..cz so noisy..dden ddey went to sunrise..i didnt go..i was orh orh-ing..=))..chalet was fun..

yya..juz wanna sae..i lorvbe my dad..las fri went bag-hunting wif kunny and jas..cant find any..dden at nite..my dad came home wif a billabong bagpack..wahh..i was so touched..hahax..i love my dad..although he ish henpecked at tyms..=pPp

todae first dae of skl..im in 3e7 btw..nort badd lah the kls..the only entertainment source was the vball boys..cz ddey keep making comments..hahax..form tcher is ms chan i tink..a lil fierce..haiyah..todae fyl a little down..dunn wanna sae why..juz..aiyah..
hahax..need to do hw liaox..first dae of skl gort tt dunno wadd handprint tink le lorx..suck larhx..

2004-11-22T20:26:00.000+08:00

hehs..now i shall post the photos taken at msia..AFTER MUCH DELAY..hello nort working so i mus upload the pics first..l8er dden i post

me and mich..[x]cUzZ fErEvEr[x]

me and jax..jax chio rite..wait till u see her sis..

me and vicki..she v chio horx..told ya..

scarves a-mania..=/

one of the three stoopid boys hu tried to flip our floats..johnathan

colin..also one of the boys hu flip our floats..he is a koala bear..a cute wan too..

jeremy..the dao-ist..oso tried to flip..colin elder bro..

the three hat princesses

me and my lil' cuzz..cute rite..

vicki and lil' cuzz..ahh..so kawaii..

clean hands b4 we destroyed our hands..look at the nex pic..

gee..colgate smeared hands..horrible rite..it was all fer fun..=))

cute elephant..

all the cuzz together..

ger power..cuzz ferever..

the whole family..luv ddem..

2004-11-20T20:45:00.000+08:00

zZzZ..hehx..nvr come online these few daes due to my superb comp..it cannort be switched on at all..and still gort dis irritating sound..well..i dunno why it suddenly recovered last nite..too powerful le..=))..okaex..better start blogging b4 it decides to get another long rest..

ytd..went chinhong hse to do uniform up..wahh..his iron..gu dong dde..sumore radiate heat..make every1 sweat lyk hell..hahax..went fer lunch at heartland..took neos..dden go bac his hse..dden 2 hr l8er..his mum order macs fer us..piangx..so richh..hahax..his mum so funny..cz i tink ddey order bed or wadd..dden his mum short short dde..sgt meizhu ask cpl meh2 to help his mum..dden his mum sae dun wan..dden lie against the bed dun let cpl meh2 to take..wahahax..laugh until tummy pain..i spent a stoppid 30 mins ironing my uniform to get tt line..was sweating the whole tym..his iron larhx..ancient dde..sumore when i hold the iron..tt holder was hot dde lorhx..and it was sooo heavy..dden play badminton..wenbin pro sia..can hit the shuttlecock holder until all the shuttlecock inside fly out..wahahax..hu ask him..wan2 play against me..

this morning..wake up..found out tt my maid washed the uniform tt i had ironed fer 30 mins..and it was WET!!!!!!!hell..i blew my top sia..juz started screaming at 6.30 in the morning..dden sum1 frm upstairs i tink..came dwn to my hse to complain..arghx..i was so pissed..i hang the uniform at the cabinet dere..she still can take and wash..dden in the end..iron iron until abit damp lorhx..hahax..by the tym i eating breakfast i nort angry le..dden my dad cum out..i told him wadd happened..hahax..dden his turn to scold liaox..wahahax..i was eating and laughing at the same tym..he scold until go out of the hse still scolding..my maid on the verge of tears le lorhx..hahax..my dad v rarely scold ppl dde..oni he will nagg..it ish my mum hu scold and scold..hahax..dden went nan hua sec..piangz..their skl real big..sumore their ncc gort gers dde..dden theoryface..kitlist alot of stuff..sumore slping in tents..yipee..finally..everytym camp oso nvr slp in tents..yya..i in grp B..no grp name yet..dden instructor ish sir jeremy..hahax..dden gort zone presentation..we all guard-of-honour..dden march tt tym nort tired at all..oni stp le will fyl v out of breath..wear gloves and colour band..the gloves make our beret furry furry dde..kah yan..a ger frm nan hua..the beret almost bcum white liaox..so much fur..dden went to the auditorium..at level 6..piangz..their auditorium gort cushion seats..still gort label..sumtink lyk a cinema..so boring..almost dozed off..hahax..wb..kunnie..eeliang..jinkai..yehan and weixiang all slping lorx..dden took photos as a contigent..hahax..haben even get drink frm the buffet yet dden must go bac le..had dinner at compass..ate at compass so many tyms this wk..getting fatter liaox..haix..siansS..tmr going to henderson sec fer NCO theoryface..waking up at 6.00 am..

oh yya..i shall post the pics..yeah..

2004-11-16T20:14:00.000+08:00

this ish gonna be a loong post..

i gort into sec3 express le..YEAHX..wld be the last kls larhx..budden..nvmss..at least i din let my parents dwn in my re-exam..hahax..thnx to those hu supported me..love yya all..

went to msia frm sat to mon..dden didnt go fer the zone presentation nite rehearsal..hahax..bad me..the ride was goddammit long..4 hrs..sit until my butt flat..sumore tt place v hard to find..dden all the restaurants closed..so had to buy food bac to the bungalow..although it ish frm the clubhouse..and was v ex..it sucked..yucks..i ate half of mine..dden went to cook cup noodles..and crunch on titbits..by the tym we slept was already 1am..all 6 of us squeezed onto two beds placed 2gether..i was on the edge and kept falling..dden the next dae went to eat breakfast buffet at the stoopid clubhse agn..there was an angmoh chef at the entrance..so i tot the food wld be better dden last nite..but..urghx..it ish even more horrible..pui..i didnt eat much..dden went to the water theme park..whee..it was so fun..bt we drove the adults crzee..the slides were so fun..esp the family raft..during the 2nd slide..i sat wif fion..vicki and two strangers..we screamed our lungs out..=)..didnt noe sum1 so gentle lyk vicki can scream so loud..we almost fell off the edge of the slide lorx..cz the body weight was nort balanced..hahax..oso sat the seven storey slide..ahh..so scary..b4 i went dwn..my heart was thumping..dden when going dwn..i juz shut my eyes..it was over in 10 secs lorx..dden i had to climb 7 storeys of stairs juz to sit the slide..but l8er suffered a headache..cz all the pressure went to my head..hahax..7 storeys slide was awesome though..tt perverted jonathan sat 4 tyms..crzee..sumore he took the other slide..which was so much steeper..the slides were damned fun..bt gort one slide..two thais slid dwn immediately after i went dwn..dden ddey were so near behind..dammit lorx..dden the adults gave us 10 mins to play in the wave pool..in the end we played fer 1 hr..we were all holding on to each other floats and forming a circle..and the 4 blardy boys had to swim up frm under and flip over our floats..lucky i can swim..the pool was 5ft deep..hell larhx..i shall post their photos l8er..bt it was sho fun lorhx..dden the adults were trying to get us out of the pool..hahax..we ignored ddem..in the end..gort scolding..dden nort enuff tym..so we bathed using the showers outside the toliets..wif our swimsuits on larhx..bt still in public view of every1..malu-ed..lucky no1 i noe was there..hahax..dden the toliet was packed..so we juz tried drying ourselves..and wear our clothes over the swimsuit..wet wet dde..yucks..dden we to0k photo wif tiger..it was biting on to the trainer hands..so scary..vicki still held on to his tail..scary..the safari was lame..we spent most of the tym queueing fer the truck lor..dden had late lunch cum dinner at a chinese restaurant..wahh..tt was the best meal..finally..there was some decent food..dden we went to the cowboy town..saw a hat shop there..full of hats..but no1 brought a camera..during this trip..every1 went crzee over the hats..dden went bac to the bungalow..dden kip eating titbits..we littered the floor wif titbits..=x..we planned to take our revenge on the boys by spreading toothpaste on their face while ddey are sleeping..in the end..all the plans went dwn the drain..dden we spread the bedsheet on the floor..cz the bed was too squeezy..after tt..the stoopid boys knocked on the glass doors leading outside..spooked us out..dden huifang sae alot of stories..dden we discover a red spot on the blanket..dden the lights occasionally wld flicker..dden ppl kip falling dwn without any reason..so..we all were v scared..we ran out of the room into the living room..dden the boys laugh at us..blardy hell..so scary lorx..dden jackie scared..she went to slp wif her mum..hahax..dden the five of us no choice..we all slp wif the lights on..dden me and vicki chat until v late..found out sumtink frm her..abt jp..jp wld die frm her scoliosis..cz her spine wld grow and press against her lungs..dden she wld die..it made me fyl guilty lorx..every1 laughed at her..dden when we abt to slp tt tym..we heard a loud sound..so scary..we juz hid under the blanket..and clamped our eyes shut..hahax..nxt dae woke up v early..yawns..dden check out and went shopping at malacca..saw a nice radioactive backpack..bt nvr buy..now kinda regret nort buying..so nice..dden we all went bac to spore..ate dinner at newton circus..yumx..all of us decided to learn hip hop..hope my mum wld let..yya..i spent RM$40++ on chewing gum..wahahax..my teeth are gonna fall out..=D..

todae gort NC trng..train a little in the morning..dden went compass pt fer lunch..came bac..gort first-aid case..dden do footdrill in the rain..so shiok..dden ish cpl kelvin teach us..dden he kip making us laugh at his mistakes..hahax..was soaked..bt it was so fun..dden when sum1 going hm..tt sum1 called sum1..wahahax..dden meh weiqi sha and wenlin ddey all so obvious..kuku lorx..lucky i go hide..bt nxt yr..it will get worse..dden do physical trng..arghx..ran alot of rounds..all bcz of cpl kelvin..he bian tai dde..make us run dden drop 5..arnd the parade square..dden did 20 inclined pull-ups..found out my arm strength becoming lousy le..my inclined pull-ups all substandard dde..bt it was fun..esp in the rain..whee..i lorve trng..bt tmr dun hv..todae im so happy..yippee..

2004-11-08T17:33:00.000+08:00

yipee..sat going to msia fer three days wif my cuzz and family..yeahx..SHOPPING!! hahax..i tink going to the resort at sunway lagoon..woots..can play..todae gort nc trng..dden after tt my dad send me home..i saw an elderly couple walking at my void deck..ddey were holding hands lorx..so sweet..hahax..i wish my future life partner will be liddatx..hahax..i tink too far le..tmr going bac to skl to collect the report bk..scared lorx..*prays*..juz hope fer the best..these few days..i tink i sleep too much..sleep until tired..=)..i can slp fer 20 hrs in a row..my dad sae he wld get me a hp fer my bdae..but..i shadnt get my hopes up too high..dou guai wo..last tym my dad pay so much fer the fone..dden within two weeks i can lose it..on the bus sumore..haiyah..dden now he bu fang xin let me take care of stuff..hahax..im absentminded mahss..

michelle..if u see this..gimme a call kaex..need to tok to u abt sumtink..i lost ur fone no. le..

2004-10-31T14:15:00.000+08:00

wth..wth..wth..my mood now ish swirly wooshy..tmr hv to retake the blardy exams..f***..and i dun even fyl lyk studying it fer it..dammit..hell..juz posting fer fun..havent get bac the blardy report bk..mdm f***ing tian sae it ish wif mrs lim huihui..sry fer the excessive use of vulgarities..i juz nid to get the word out..blardy..tmr sci and eng..eng no nid study lars..it ish science i hv to worry abt..60% lehx..it aint easy lorx..esp when i fail by a stoopid 0.5 mark for SA2..i hate myself..no use lor..even if i improve..oso cannort improve tt fast..sumore sci ish so difficult to get 60%..except for geniuses..and tues..maths and hist..im a goner fer hist..dammit..sum1 ban mdm tian frm teaching hist..she dunno how to teach lor..and only knows how to make ppl pay fines..

the stoopid chinese dpt made us buy tt bk..fer 5 bucks..ddey FORCE us..ddey sae if we dun buy..we wun get bac our report bk..in the end..i still din get bac mine..shd hv nort bought it..waste of money aniwaex..all crap..and there ish jingpoh essay inside sumore..abt how discriminated she ish wif the class..okae..and there was a part abt WE [ the class gers] chasing after ouxiang..while she..the 'pure' and 'innocent' one..concentrate on her studies..wadeva lahsS..i dun gv a damn..i fyl so angry now..nort wif jingpoh..bt wif myself..

class chalet coming..guess that ish the oni tink to look forward to..during the hols..there ish so many tinks to buy..and im broke..still owe rina money..haix..the hols are here..yet it isnt the hols fer me yet..so many tinks to do..wif so little tym..

chrissypoo out of spore idol liaox..wells..he might be shuai..bt he cant sing certain genre of music..pity sia..or else the whole package wld be there..now..my fav ish sylvester lorx..hahax..i lyk rockers..daphne ish cute..bt her voice too minnie mouse..okae larsS..she ish the best after sylvester lorx..

oh yya..monday night at 8pm..channel 8..must watch huan le dian feng..gort tension..yipee..im gonna record it dwn..

2e4' o4 rawksS..gonna miss every1..including kenny and jp..RYL..!!

2004-10-25T17:06:00.000+08:00

uRgHx..wo yao shui jiao..everydae v tired..todae in kls..ms lee play tt dunno wad iran film and i was SLPING..*yawns*..wahahax..im a pig..ytdd..i cut my hair..yucky yucky yucks..it ish so damn blardee short..and i cut my fringe myself..cz recently gort nc trng..dden everytym do dressing tt tym..my fringe wld fall all over my face..so i juz took the scisscors and snip..wahahax..my hair ish gone..now..although my hair looks lyk a boy..my head fyl so much lighter..my symphaties to those who hv hair as long as ten 1m rulers..seriously..im crapping..i wan2 slp..gastric recently too..juz cant eat anytink..i oso v punctual every morning for nc trng..wahahax..trng start at 6.45a.m..i leave the hse at 6.45..wahahax..fer ppl lyk me..always late..dden suddenly can come so early..nort badd lehss..i need my slp mahss..
wed gort SJAB activity..must bring full uniform..arghx..hv to bring everytink to skl..omg..im gonna ddiee..suan le..i wanna go slp le..told ya..im a pigg..yya..during assembly..mrs l0ng[is tt her name?] aired some korean film..wahhax..tt small boy look lyk john..hahax..i link every guy wif small eyes small mouth big nose to john..the movie ryl nice..heard tt the ending ryl touching..i wan the vcd..i need to watch the ending..the old grandma oso so cute..haiz..tonite mus watch huan le dian feng..gort TENSION..arghx..im going madd..wahahax..dis fri hv to wake up v early..my 1 hr of slp..cz my dad cant fetch me to skl..he go overseas..haixX..i dunno wan2 take bus..hahax..cz i lazee..must get my mum to fetch me to skl..yeahx..dis nov 19 to 21 gort kls chalet..tink it most likely the last tym 2e4 2gether..haix..gonna mish u guys..see every1 writing tt dunno wad tink fer every1..hmmx..so i write lorx..

`~ tHe gErSxX~

`sEeYuEn [knew u fer 4 yrs already..nice ger..v swt..helpful and caring too..so clever oso..all da best to you..]
`mInGhUi [wahh..smart chiobu..wahahax..u ryl v clever lahX..didnt quite tok to u much..bt u seem v nice..all da best in badminton]
`cHoO mIn [hEyX..hate npcc alot harX..a strong christian lehx..continue believing in GOD..bless u]
`pEiNi [WATERBED!!!!!!=PpP..john dun suck..he rawks..at least better dden jay..bleahhss..hahax..when u gving birth to jay long feng tai..happy pregnancy..wahahax..firm waterbed harx..]
`eEvEeS [vv emotional..haix..hurts to see u cry..u noe..try to be stronger kaex..although we wun be in the same kls..u can come to me wif ur worries..nex yr work harder on ur science kaeSs..jiayou]
`hUiMiN [hmm..dis ger..oso sitting at the bac wif gq and justin..actually i thought u were those quiet quiet type..bt u proved me wrong..studies oso gwd..rawk on..]
`yILiN [another one of those i thought quiet quiet dde..hahax..ryl v funni lor u..hmm..chinese damned power dde rite..]
`mEliSsA [woo..ger u rawk..dis one..crzee dde..mood swing sumore..alwayx join me and laugh at jp..wahahax..cute ger..so fierce oso..sumtimes scare me..we used to hv fun drawing chinghong the angel waterbottle rite..dden he everydae nid to bring new bottle..wahahahx..gwd at imitating angeline shrieking too..gwd luck in vball..and i lyk the circus..*winks*]
`dEnIsE [arghx..u les..wahahax..talented artist..u shd ryl take art u know..ahahax..molester oso..wahahax..she so sway..during exam sit behind jp..dden nid to stare at jp bun..omg..i wld die if i were u..hahax..badminton qiang rite..hmmsS..rmb to tie ur shoelaces too..]
next up..my favourite ger in kls..*drum roll*..tada..
`jInGpOh [hmm..nth much to sae..oh yya..stp biting ur nails..and juz go and do rebonding..at least u wld look much normal..oso..we mean no harm when we juz lyk criticise u..we were juz hving fun..oh yya...tuck out ur shirt more too..and wear ur skirt lower..nono..nort at the waist..5 inches dwn..hahax..be careful when ur da yi ma comes and visit u..all da best to u..oh yya..can u make ur eyes smaller..it ryl make u look scary..and dun DENG at ppl when ddey dun do duty or wadeva..example..ppl lyk me lah..the ppl hu dun do duty wld only get their revenge by blogging 10 000 wrds abt u..wahhaax..oso..change ur ENGLISH name..isanna sound too much lyk istana..which btw..ish the zong tong fu in spore..see..i so nice..help u translate into chinese hanyu pinyin..hahax..happy changing..hope i can see a new you next yr..]
`aNdRiNa [chiobu..u are nort FAT..gawd..im much fatter dden u lorx..okaex..stp obsessing over ur nort fat-ness..transfer the energy sumwhere..it will make u a more healthy person..smilex..]
`eLeNa[hurray..u suck..wif ur results..u might as well have went into 2T in the beginning of the yr..go to hell]
`sHeRmAiNe [piangx..another super chiobu..okae..nxt yr..i will buy a pair of white shoes for ur bdae..kaex..oso..i can swop results wif u..so tt u can see him..wahhahax..]
`hOiTiNg [wah..dis ger gort super lot to sae abt dde..her mouth..super venomous..wahahax..will miss her crap every morning during assembly..keep me entertained..]
`aNgEliNe [hahax..although ur results ryl v gwd..bt stp boasting abt ur level position..it will only make ppl hu didnt do so well fyl badd..dun whine too much nxt tym..can make ppl go deaf..cz v high lehx..do u mind changing frm soprano to alto..?hahax..nvmss..jiayou in everytink..esp junkiat..dunno why he dun wan u..or why u dun wan him oso..haishhh]

2004-10-20T13:02:00.000+08:00

yeahX..gort free tym during IT lesson..so im here blogging..these few daes..spend everydae at hm..my butt ish stuck on the computer chair..daddy actually wanted to bring us out..bt due to some "last min commitments" he cannt..im used to it anywae..juz fyling kinda bored..last nite..my parents came hm wif terrible news..shadnt sae wad isit..it ish juz too personal..i oni told some ppl abt dis..haiSsh..im given one last chance tmr..i mus make gwd use of the chance..i MUST..i hate myself..i must get wad i wan..*prays*..i mus change smth in my life..it aint gonna remain this wae..sucky results..sucky parents..sucky skl..sucky siblings..sucky everytink..hAiX..in the afternoon still gort NC trng..im dead..whole body aching frm lethargic-ness

2004-10-20T11:51:00.000+08:00

yeahX..gort free tym during IT lesson..so juz blogging..dis few daex..so sianss..my butt was stuck on the computer chair..and my eyes lethargic frm staring at the comp..dden last nite..my parents came hm wif terrible news..shadnt sae wadd..it ish too personal..tink i oni told some ppl abt it..nvms..im given a last chance..

2004-10-16T10:46:00.000+08:00

uRgHx..it ish a boring saturdae morning..every1 i noe ish at the open hse..and im waiting at hm..in front of the computer..fer my tuition tcher to come..i dun understand my mum..exams over le..still tuition fer wadd..waste of money..might as well gv me..aniwaex..it ish all up to her..getting bac results for EOY nex wk..juz hope i get enuff to get into sec3e..life ish juz so sucky..i dun see a need fer exams..juz kill millions of human brain cells..

2004-10-14T21:51:00.000+08:00

blogging to motivate weiqi to blog..or isit she motivate me..cz she blog first..wahahx..shadnt tok abt ytd..malu-ed myself in front a cnb officer..uRgHx..and sum1 tried to hit me..wahahax..bt he still failed..my blog ish under construction..i did a horrible mistake of putting in the code of sumtink..and now i cant get it out..stoopid com..hang on me..lousy..it must hang 10 tyms a dae..shou bu liao..the night b4..my mum went mad..she threw all my cds awae into the rubbish bin..bt in the end she still take bac fer me..wahahax..listened to LI GE ten thousand tyms todae..tt song ryl nice..i hate my comp..i tink im gonna fail sec2..retain retain retain..and im blogging to prove im nort LOVESICK..

[x]iN lOrVe wIf jOhN vOicE[x]

2004-10-14T20:10:00.002+08:00

i lyk the bg..

2004-10-14T20:10:00.001+08:00

horrible agn

2004-10-14T20:10:00.000+08:00

blahx..horrible..

2004-10-14T20:09:00.001+08:00

yeahx

2004-10-14T20:09:00.000+08:00

honey sticks

2004-10-14T20:08:00.000+08:00

yea

2004-10-14T20:07:00.000+08:00

neox agn

2004-10-14T20:06:00.000+08:00

neox..gee

2004-10-12T20:19:00.000+08:00

whee..!!exams finally over le..newaex..i tink im gonna flunk my maths sci and hist liaoX..boo..heheX..after exams..saw sum1 immediately..shadnt tok abt it..bt i was v v happi..realise tt i haben ryl saw him fer v long..newaex..weiqi siao dde..met her on the bus mahss..dden she cld hv gone hm wif her sista..bt in the end she get dwn at main road..dden her sis sat all the wae to compass..wahahhaX..wad a weird pair of siblings..sumore her gor took the bus before her..im mad..dden l8er..went j8..bt angeline and sher went angie hse first..so me and rina took bus to j8 first..after tt..dey all reach le..angie wear until soo sexy..and she keep saying she ish fat..wth..dden wad m i..?..so we watch movie..white chicks..buddenx the movie screening tym very late mahx..so we all go take neos first..im completely neo-nified..almost everytym go out mus take neox dde..wahahaX..in the end..get scolded by kunyang..sae anyhow spend money..tt tym we go out..he oso gort take mahx..still so ai mei..sae wad..dun stand to high..block my face le..wahahhax..l8er i scan finish the neox dden mebbe post the pics..if i can rmb..aniwaex..we keep playing wif the ticket uncle while waiting fer rina to buy hotdog..he sho funnieX..keep making fun of ppl..after looong tym of commercials..the movie finally air le..yya..i watch the commercial for princess diaries[the royal engagement]..it ish a mus watch sia..so niiicee..during the commercial tym..rina me and sher keep rebuking at sum primary skl boys..wahahhax..dden dey keep arguing wif us..in e end..the movie air..so we watch lorx..tt movie ryl ryl v v nice..so hilarious..i kept laughing lyk a moron throughout the movie..gort a song in the movie..soundtrack i tink..hen hao ting..i tink ish a thousand miles by vanessa carlton..was freezing in the cinema..i had to hug myself..=PpPpP..in e end..cz very late le..so gort no choice..take taxi lorx..in e end..we bang seh rina..cz she stae at WOODLANDS..dden the rest of us stae hougang..dden tt uncle..he v v v chong dong..he was flying the taxi sia..dden when gort traffic jam..dden he kept scolding fuck under his breath..bt we all still heard..dden we dun dare to tok mahss..dden use angeline phone type message..dden sher sae wah..l8er left me alone wif him..cz she alight last..dden we all sae the taxi driver will rape her..bwahahahx..im sho evil..dden she so scared..dden when the driver turn at amk mrt station dere..we all had to lean to the side..wahxx..so dangerous sia..i held on fer dear life..the uncle was so scary..didnt even make any noise..finally..reach my hse le..im relieved of the silent torment..dden in the end..i nvr bring my stoopid keys..aRgHx..everytym i had to stae out late..i wld ferget to bring my keys..dden had to wait outside my hse fer my maid to cum hm wif my sis..so malu lorX..cz gort ppl walk pass..dden keep staring at a xinmin ger...looking so lost..blearhx..newaex..tmr sjab 2e,3n and 3t peeps going cnb..3e still gort examx...gwd luck to all the 3e peepx..esp...dden weiqi now bluff me..or no..nort bluff..confuse me..hahahax..waiting fer the beautiful shermaine teo to cum online..i nid to send her sumtink..

FREEDOM..!!FINALLY!!IM FREED!!

2004-10-09T18:20:00.000+08:00

heYx..sry to zy staff sock and syad..link you all after exams..cz too lazee now..wo hen lan duo dde..bloggin at the request of qi..she wan me to PUBLICISE avril..i tink i wld more likely be to smear her reputation..
AVRIL LAVIGNE
pretty, talented, skinny, rumoured to be engaged to sum41 singer..oso smears charcoal arnd her eyes..oOpS..weiqi ish so going to kill me..okae..avril dun smear charcoal she smear sumtink called kohl..wells..it make her look prettier..okae..her songs are ryl nice..nice voice too..so wad are u waiting for..? buy her cd=under your skin= now..!!

bleaHx..i fyl lyk im writing a commercial english paper1..okae..found the lyrics for tension songs..gort lyk which member sing which part..found out tt john voice ryl airy airy dde..totally diff when he speaks..he spk lyk xiao hai zi liddat..sumore his english very fluent..no angmoh accent..his voice ryl nice..and oso found out..the three main singers in tension ish john jimmy and brian..the other two like zuo bo liddatx..no lah..ray raps and andy he sheng.. yeah..im so into guys who sing airy airy dde den tok lyk xiao hai zi..actually according to qi..moonlite oso spk liddatx..dunno..mei you ting guo..oso i wan2 blog abt my testi to qi..it ish more lyk a testi for both of us lor..sumore she start earlier dden me and i finish writing for her earlier dden her..wahahahax..slow typer..lemme show u the testi..

wo lai le..aggaiinn..blahx..bu yong jin..cz qi gort tales tt shi shuo bu wan dde..=PpPpPp..okae..she arhX..kiwi-fied..newaes..did i sae that i lurve her "gor"..?heeX..she sho lucky..can live wif her gor..yeah..im crapping..bwahahaX..i lorve john..she love JOHN arne riise..i lorve using avril lyrics..she love avril..i absolutely hate tt hairy brown green seedy sour fruit..yet she lorve it..gawd noes wad she ish tinking..she gort a voice that ish L-o-U-D..argHx..*deafened*..she has weird taste..REALLY..ryl ryl weird taste..she lorves chubby characters..lyk tasmanian devil..hu else harX..she lorves jay..i prefer tension..she lorves high-pitched voice..i lorve voice tt sound lyk kids ..she lorve ppl walking frm the toliet..i lorve ppl shouting up frm the 3rd floor in his kiddy voice..she lorves bags that are very common..i lorve bag that are unusual..she lorves soccer..i prefer vball..hehx..she lorve chocs..i love it too..yEaH..she ish kuku-fied..im sane.

okae..i tink every post i post ish abt john john tension tension blahx blahx..there ish seriously nth interesting in my life..hey..i oso fergort to sae that i hv an "interesting" family..hurray to me..

ending off..to every1..exams oni left a few more daes..jiayou..all da best fer the remaining papers..gee..=D

he was everytink i wanted..everytink..was it wrong..?
//dReAm nO mOrE\\
hAtE mY lIfE

2004-10-09T18:11:00.000+08:00

aVriL

2004-10-06T21:50:00.000+08:00

todae ish roger bdae..didnt celebrate as no1 staed bac..sci test very hard..tink im gonna flunk it..as usual..haiX..juz finished tuition..i was dozing off lorX..and the tcher was eXtremly pissed wif me..dl-ed the full version of tension "gen zhe yue liang man man zhou" mv..ryl touching..the oni flaw was dat they converse in 3 languages..korean..chi..and english..cz dat female lead ish korean mahX..anw..john was the main lead..or izit jimmy..?oh wells..hu cares..got a few parts so touching until can cry..john hugged dat ger..dden e ger push him awae as she liked jimmy and jimmy was there oso..so sadX..got another part..the ger sitting in the field..dden john came over and ask her wad she was doing..she said..waiting for the moon to come out..dden she ask him wad he was doing on the field..he said..im here juz to wait for the moon wif u..aRgHx..sho touching..bLaHx..if u wan to watch it..can go dis webbie to dl
http://www.tienma.com/mtv/mtvhtml/157.htm
newayx..tmr maths and lit paper..oh yya..todae gort bac maths ca2 marks..i failed by 0.3 marks..wishing every1 luck for tmr papers..

2004-10-05T21:38:00.000+08:00

lalalaX..todae v happy although im sure i failed history..dun even noe wad the qns ish abt..i juz wrote one whole load of crap..congrats to me..^_^..hmm..tmr sci paper liaoX..to EVERYONE.jiayou..cannt fail dis sci exam..and oso all da best fer ur other exams..hmm..gort informed by qi tt tmr ish roger bdae..as weiqi said in her blog..if he wun read hers..he ish even more unlikely to read mine..=pPpPp..kaeX..gotta go le..calling Qi to plan how to celebrate his bdae..most prob staying bac after sci..hmm..even though he wun read my blog..juz wanna wish him happy bdae..oso..gwd luck to everyone..

2004-10-03T19:19:00.000+08:00

lOoK aT hIs eYeS..*dian*

2004-10-03T19:18:00.001+08:00

jOhN..sUrRonDed bY peOplE

2004-10-03T19:18:00.000+08:00

wAtEr gLutTon

2004-10-03T19:17:00.000+08:00

sInGiNg.."tIan shang de YUE GUANG yi yang na me wen ruo"

2004-10-03T19:16:00.001+08:00

sInGinG

2004-10-03T19:16:00.000+08:00

hE iSh juX so shuai..

2004-10-03T19:15:00.001+08:00

tEnSiOn

2004-10-03T19:15:00.000+08:00

tHe eVeR sO sHuAi joHn

2004-10-03T19:14:00.001+08:00

lOoK..hE iSh sMiLiNg..^_^

2004-10-03T19:14:00.000+08:00

sIde view again

2004-10-03T19:13:00.001+08:00

sIde vIeW

2004-10-03T19:13:00.000+08:00

sInGs.."gOtTa bE uR mAn"i sUrE hOpE sHo

2004-10-03T19:11:00.000+08:00

sIdE

2004-10-03T19:10:00.001+08:00

cUtE..dImpLefieD

2004-10-03T19:10:00.000+08:00

jOhN eYeS

2004-10-03T19:09:00.000+08:00

rAyMoNd tHe sUpeRmAn

2004-10-03T18:35:00.000+08:00

went junction8 todae..saw TENSION or rather JOHN..he ish juz sho damned shuai..gort alot of peeps lyk him too..nvr cheer for him..gort bad cough..nvms..im sho happy now..shook his hand sumore..den they signed cds..YEAH!! hmm..i was rather nervous lor..den when i came to brian..he said hello den ask me how old am i..i was lyk..wad for ask for my age..den in the end i juz said 14 den walk awae..den went came to jimmy..cz i was traumatized frm shaking JOHN hand so i juz held my head lowlow..den he sae hi..why do u keep looking at the floor..am i tt terrifying..?den i juz look up lor..and he was sho extremly tall..imagine JOHN..JOHN ish 183cm tall while jimmy ish juz 180cm..hahax..mebbe nt much of a diff..newaes..JOHN sweat alot..i see him keep wiping his sweat and drinking water..dere were alot of ppl dere lor..arnd 700 plus..hmm..i took pics of john too..and he gort dimple in his right cheek..arghx..=PpPp..l8er i post up the pics..hmm..todae was a ryl fun dae..now studying geog lyk mad..im rushing through it lyk mad..

2004-10-02T13:04:00.000+08:00

juz now was posting halfwae..den internet explorer shut dwn..uRghX..bloody suckish com..hate it..juz came bac frm oral..sux lor..spoke halfwae..den suddenly voice cracked..stoppid cough..blearhx..ytd..was staff sock bdae party..cldnt go..bcz of dat lit remedial..write until hand numb..newaex..wanna tell staff sock sumtink..if she sees dis..StAfF sOcK..hApPy bDaE aNd gWd lUcK fOr uR uPcOmInG eXaMs..went pizza hut to eat ytd too..mel was wif us bt she did nt eat anytink..i declare her anorexic..she did nt eat anytink lorX..except for a slice of chicken..no wonder lah..so skinny..hmm..i shall try and do up my links..dunno whether to go to tension autograph session tmr..no1 seems to be going..sumore exams the next dae..haiX..spking of tension..today newspaper gort a picture of tension and JOHN was drawing sumtink..hahX..im mad..JOHN ish juz so cute...nt to mention shuai..=PpPpP..going mad soon..hmmX..nth much juz wanna tell sum peeps sumtink..

Qi_i nort angry at u lahX..juz too busy to go find u..sry kaeX..gWd luCk fOr uR eOy..smile more..notice im writing in ORANGE.._

Van_jUz leT it gO..dUn tInk aBt iT le..uR eOy cUmInG soOn..if he ryl liddatx..there ish no point holding on..dun tink too much..jiayou for ur exams..im sure u can do it dde_

StaFf sOcK_aGaIN..hApPy bDaE..tHnX fOr tEaChInG tHe sEc2 sQuAd fOoTdRilL dIs yR..wIlL mIsS u dE..gWd lUcK fOr uR tEsTs_

2004-10-02T12:42:00.000+08:00

juz trying..=PpPp

2004-09-28T18:10:00.000+08:00

MYLIFEISHMESSEDUPIDUNEVENNOEWADISHGOINGON
smth happened these two daes..dunno how am i supposed to fyl now..im jux confused..ryl confused..my mind ish in a whirl..tt scene keep playin over n over in my mind..i almost cried in da bloody bus..told pei2 abt it..am i even supposed 2 fyl sad..ytd..i hoped everytink was jux a nightmare..mebbe im juz imagining it..bt it doesnt seem so..perhaps i did sumtink wrong..bt wad was it..?now im juz NUMB, numb wif pain..todae..everytink juz went past in a daze..everytink i did seemed wrong..every1 tink im alrite..i hv a smile on my face..wad was wrong..?lemme tell u..dat smile ish fake..juz purely FAKE!! i may seem as if i dun care..bt my heart..it ish torn..i flunked the two tests todae..i was juz scribbling numbers and words on the paper..i dun even noe wad ish written on it..those tinks..i dun even noe how 2 react to it..i hv nvr trusted so much..yet it was gone..juz gone..i dun even noe wad happened..ppl seem to blame me for everytink these daes..i juz badly need someone..someone to hear me out..someone hu understands me..someone who can make me fyl better..SOMEONE!!is that even too much to ask for..?i juz cannt keep everytink inside anymore..ive been doing dat for ages..gawd..i suck..i dun even deserve to be on dis earth..im selfish..selfcentred..suckish..i shd juz die..dis tot has been wif me for ages..i juz dun hv the bloody courage..everyone may look as me as a happy-go-lucky ger crzee over sum guy called JOHN..even if the world juz crashed dwn on me..i wld nt care..u all do nt understand..the only way for me to 4get all those unhappy tots was to ACT as if im happy..it ish nt easy..i make frequent trips to the toliet..it ish the oni place where i can ponder over everytink..every word the tcher says juz pass right through me..im faltering even as im typing dis..i juz hv to get everytink out..it cant be kept anymore..ppl nvr see me sad b4..everybody tinks i dun give a damn abt my results..i DO..u tink i love to cum home wif those results and get a scolding frm my parents..?i DUN..i desperately wan them to believe in me again..i dun wan2 see my dad tearing juz bcz he ish too worried for me..im trying to be a gd daughter in their eyes..im trying..why dun everyone juz realise anytink..everyone juz tink im wad dey see im..dey tink i cant change..it ish tough..bt im going to try hard..i cant keep letting dem dwn..dey work hard to put me through skl..dey dun usually take leave frm work even though dey are sick..wad ish all this for..my dad wake up 2 hrs before his working tym juz to send me to skl even though he turns in l8er den me..much as i like too..i cant stp all my parents concern for me..im such a disappointment..dey hv placed high hopes on me..and yet i let dem dwn again and again..i can tell dey are trying hard to do everytink dey cld for me..bt i juz dun seem to appreciate..im juz horrible..HORRIBLE..im nt even fit to be a human..i juz HATE MYSELF..!!
DIS WORLD HAS NO SPACE FOR ME..IM HORRIBLE

2004-09-22T17:18:00.000+08:00

blahX..